The Imperfection.

My Love Letter, To You

2011-09-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

Actually I wanted to post this post before Li cheang and Mindy go for their trip but I still missed the blogging.

However, I still want to write this post no matter what. Hehe, sorry guys.

We don't took much crazy photo of 3 of us, here is the only one. Sorry for the blurry.

Here I have a love letters for you guys.

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Dear Li Cheang,

You going to shanghai, enjoy the traveling and release all the stress you've got hehe.

Now you coming back already, I wanted to thank you for the snack and souvenir.

Thanks a lot, you are always my best buddy ever!

Love,

Little Pig

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Dear Mindy,

Remember to take more pictures when you are in Korea.

Not everyone has the chances to have student exchange programs.

Enjoy the student's life when you still have it.

When you come back we will have girl's shopping again hehe.

Remember grab whatever they have there, fashion, facial treatment, anything haha!!

All the best though and take care :).

We are waiting for you:)

Love,

Little Pig

I'm Emo, But Yet Happy :)

2011-09-06T22:39:00.003+08:00

(Please please oh please... to give me some place to have my complaint and murmur... It is just too tired to keep inside my mind and heart. After said it I will tend to forgot, then I will be not so emo)

It's been 6 months I've been working.
It looks like very long but actually it's not.
How I wish I've already working for one year!
A lot of my friends have been working for one year because they found the job earlier than me, except for those who has been extended.

I'm working under a really good environment.
With good colleagues, good teams.
Not really have good boss haha!
Yeah, since I started to work it's learning for every single day!
That is what I've been asking for, "I wish I can learn new thing everyday!"
It's a good thing to keep on learning new stuff.
However, when it's not something that you like,
for me it's kind of torturing.
Still, no matter what I will try my best to learn, although it is not fully from my heart.

I don't know what others think but, I felt that it is quite nice treated nicely by everyone around me.
In this 6 months, I really very happy to have such a good team around.
But, the more I socialist with them, the more low-esteem I have.
Not that I'm saying they are not good,
just, it is my internal problem.
Well, for those who mix with me for so many years should know I easy to have low-esteem toward myself especially when I felt that I can't really socialist or into the group or have more sharing with them.
I don't have any knowledge, I don't really know how to socialist (I know a lot of you sure disagree about this), It is hard for someone to interact with others when they have limited knowledge or thought or half knowledge in their mind.
Months by months I realize that, I'm getting lesser and lesser I want to talk. I'm getting lesser and lesser I want to mix or go out with people (unless when I'm in the mood).
I started to realize that, my socialist is only can be interact in between myself.
Nah, it is actually something that I realize long time ago.
At 1st, yeah I keep on talking talking talking.
When I realize I can't really have conversation with one,
I will start to create a gap between me and one.
As time passing by, I started to lock myself in the box.
I don't like to read or study or anything. (But it is something that I wish I love)
so as time passing by, the knowledge I have in my mind is getting overdue.
So most of the time I wish people come to me instead of I go for others.
But when others come to me, I tend to think of how to quickly ended up the conversation. (of course it is not apply to everyone, only certain people)
No matter guy or girl, I have no idea how to have conversation.
Humans tend to like give and take but I can't even do both of it.
Not that I am selfish, it is just I don't know how.
So sometimes I just remain silent.
It's the only way to avoid being felt annoyed by others.

If I'm telling around that I'm actually don't know how to socialist and don't know how to maintain the social,
no one can believe that.
It seems like I have plenty of friends!
Yes I have! But, most of them is just a goodbye friends.
And it is something that I don't like.
I wish to turn all the goodbye friends become a friend that they can find me anytime they want and I can interact with them with any conversation!
(If I'm complaining these to others, the answer I will get is, LEARN! part of it, yeah learn how to read, learn how to social, learn how to interact... I'M LEARNING I'M LEARNING OK!!)

Besides that, nowadays I don't really complaint much as I used to.
Unless I am over stressed.
Example like it's my 1st time to meet someone impatient to teach me things.
Not that I wanted to be a slow learner.
All my "teacher" were a patient person.
Whenever I complaint, what I get always an offender.listener instead of just a listener.
What I need is just a place to release it.( for sometimes.)
Again, when time flies, I tend to have lesser complaint.
Especially complaint about what I work, complaint about people around me.
No one is perfect, right?
Some more, the lesser I talk, the lesser I will hurt people or say something that I shouldn't say it.
I'm not a person that good in filtering my brain, so, I tend to hurt people anytime and anywhere.

There is a lot of things that make me changed after I started to work.
It also makes me thinks that I doesn't really suit in the society.
A lot of you sure will think that I think to much (again).
It is just something that I felt.
When I feel others seems like doesn't like me around,
I will just leave quietly...

When I'm facing some problem that I can't solve,
I always choose to escape instead of solving it.
It is one of the way to cool down myself before I step forward.
When I realize that I can't talk anymore,
I always choose to lock myself away from crowded.
That is the time I felt I want to travel alone around.

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(Now enough for the cloudy day, let rise the sunshine!)

However, no matter how bad I felt,
there is always a place to cool me down haha!!
either my lovely rocks crazy cool best gang be with me!
I love them so much!!
or the beast team!! haha!!
I love being with them!
Just sometimes I reject to hang out with them because of I need to be fetch by them every single time!
Feel such a useless.
They always have a lot of plan!
So happening, Damn! haha..
Such as, this coming weekend they are going to have house warming party and also opening house makan-makan!
Yer... It's all about food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and GATHERING!!! Haha!
UNFORTUNATELY!!!! NONE OF IT I CAN JOIN!! SUGAR HONEY ICE TEA!
Because of I have to work.
Well, if I didn't work, I can't have my two weeks holiday with family right?
So as I always have to face, in between two, I always have to choose one.
Either beast team or my family.
It is something that I wish I can be greed to have two at once.

Of course, I didn't forget about my own gang!!!
I wish I could have mid-autumn celebration with them.
OI OI YOU GUYS FASTER GO BUY LANTERN!
Monday night we play lantern ok? hehe

Here is some pictures that I've been not updated for like, few months?

I just lazy to edit those photos haha.

And sorry for some pictures I didn't edit it.

I'm using netbook, it is very slow! So I lazy to wait for it haha!

Here we go!

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*The Happening Team C. There is birthday celebration and farewell. Do you saw me there? XD so surprise! They bought me two slides of Secret Recipe Cheese cake! Wow! Damn XD freaking happy hehe, just that, cheese is not really my cup of tea, still XD I accepted the taste hehe. Thanks guys!! You guys rocks! ( Sorry Ben I lazy to transfer another photo so XD I use the glasses to cover the almost-close eyes haha)*

*Some entertainment that we have during the working period! Especially Raya! More and more food! haha.. And I'm bored until go and play the plastic bag that I have collected huhu~*

*The FIT - We are no nerds gathering, as well as my birthday! One big family! Unfortunately not that united yet. And Prunes from Mindy, also XD MY LOVELY XIAO ZHU's album from yao hung huhu!*

*New kitchen so I'm started my cooking lesson, nah, not always success. Mostly is fried thing, a lot of people can cook right? Just put oil and throw everything inside and fried and wala! done haha! Oh ya also my very 1st spaghetti cooking haha! Satisfaction!*

*My, er, august creation! It's my phone charger. Also another unexpected success. And different type of sewing, still XD satisfaction, just that. T_T the outcome is fail because T_T it's actually a bear not a dog!!*

*Another birthday present from Li cheang!!!*

*My very 1st snooker! With team C =.=*

* Present from SHANGHAI!! By Li cheang!! Thank you!! Damn more snack haha! *

*Tenji2 for my 1st time! Sam brought me here for dinner and we realize that buffet not really our cup of tea haha. And =.= tenji2 not much choices for me.. wasted.*

* XD Sam cooked these for my dinner! Wow happy for it! And his experiment of Cabonara Fettuccine. Not happy because of I need to wash all those plates after 12 hours working exhausted. =.=*

*And I have my new hair cut that cost me quite a lot. In the end because of my own hair is not a healthy hair, now my hair looks like grass again =.=

and can you see the cute bunny cover? Yes I got a new phone finally hehe, easily guess what phone is that hehe. What to do, T_T my W810 has left me behind T_T I'm sad for the R.I.P, still the best phone ever for me.*

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A long post huh, what to do, XD I'm such a lazy bug haha!! Thanks for the time to read my murmur and enjoy the picture hehe. (Yeah yeah i know, mostly are from my facebook picture XD haha!)

p/s: WooHoo!! I'm going back after few days!! I mean hometown!! After one year I didn't go back home. Unfortunately I haven't even bought any souvenir for them... haix... what should I do, I have lack of time already. Sad..

Stupid Question

2011-07-22T13:41:00.001+08:00

Why can't we be born to be the same?

I wish I'm jobless now

2011-07-06T18:41:00.001+08:00

Start from June I started feel that how come I kept on having bad luck?
Isn't it going smoothly for the whole two months after I enter the company?
How come now keep pop out a lot of mistake??
Why I kept on doing mistake!!
Sometimes yes I'm very cautious, but still will missed out something for sometimes.
Hello it's nothing small, it's a big case,
just like study time, non-stop giving out trouble for others.
Now kept on causing problem for the boss.
I really hate it! Hate it until I wish I just resign!!
But unfortunately I can't do that.
When I started to work, there is nothing I can escape from already.
Not like study time, when there is a mistake you've been made, just correct it.
After you work, there is no such thing as correction anymore.
Whenever there is any mistake you did, they always ask for the root cause and prevention.NON-STOP!
not like your study time, once there is a mistake, oh just correct it and no need to say anything.
Now I hate and phobia whenever I see the word root cause and prevention...
This is nothing that I can explain because I never did.
I don't even know what am I doing!
Shit just happened.
My good luck is just gone just after a short period and for me it's quite unfair!
But there is nothing fair in the world right?

Cautious also make mistake, Not being cautious also make mistake.
I really don't know what else I can do.
It just gave me another fear to enter the office.
Sometimes just wish I never accept this job.
And I also regretted accept the confirmation so early.
After accept it the bad thing keep coming to me.
What should I do?
God, what kind of test are you giving me now?
What you want me to do?
Stop running away from my own mistake? Even stopping me for taking a break?
Ever since I started to work, there is a lot of things that I always reject for facing or doing it that I need to do.
Such as guiding a fresh meat, must finish the job in time or finished everything by today (while I always love to delay my own project or stuff), facing all the mistake that I did, there is never a turning back way.
Never...

So I told myself,
after this job, I wouldn't find a job that concern about SLA time or running the batch job in time, everything just be very be careful not the click on the wrong job, not to miss the job, everything must be sequence.
Colorful thing around, no one is rushing you for doing what you need to do,
no one put expectation to you.
But I don't think I can, unless I don't want to work.

與其。。。不如

2011-07-05T17:53:00.000+08:00

我一直都在跟自己說要時時提醒自己離群，

不可太容納他人，

但卻忘了，

與其學怎麽離群，不如學怎麽隨機應變。

在乎

2011-07-04T18:09:00.001+08:00

當，被你在乎的人忽冷忽熱，

當，你一直都那麽在乎的人覺得他/她自己一直都是一個人

當，你很用心，很努力讓你在乎的人不覺得自己是多餘的

當，你希望什麽事情都想要對你在乎的人分享他/她卻當作不管它事

當，你希望他/她有什麽心事，可以告訴你，即時你不是個很好的安慰者

那個心，是多麽的痛多麽的傷。

也許，你在那個人的心根本沒你想象的那麽重要吧。

太在乎每一件事，每一樣東西，每一個人，

的確是一件很累的事。

我可不可以學會不在乎身邊的每一件事，每一個人呢？

這樣，是不是我就會變一個自私又冷血的人呢？

不正常的心

2011-06-25T18:43:00.001+08:00

心理一直都會有内疚，埋怨，妒嫉，不甘心的人，

讓我天天都過著忐忑不安，沒有安全感，怕這怕那的心情來過我的生活。

我不是真正的快樂，也很久沒真正的大笑出來了。

真希望有天這些，將會離我而去，

讓我不會再有假裝的一面。

The Long Updated

2011-05-21T19:08:00.007+08:00

Ahhh! So long I didn't update my blog already!
So damn lazy to update after I started to work!
Whenever I work night shift, sure after the last night shift I will wasted my whole day just to sleep =.=|||
I have a lot of activities during April that I wanted to update so badly!
Unfortunately all the activities's photos not taken by my own camera so I doesn't feel like want to edit.
Beside that I'm so lazy to edit those photos WAHAHAAHA sorry about that.

April and May has been a very enjoyed month for me.
It's a very "enjoyed" month for my wallet as well =D
Luckily it's my own salary!! And I'm glad of it hehe!

It's been officially I worked for 3 months!!! OMG
Unexpectedly haha!
And unexpectedly I managed my job quite ok wor although I done one time operation error T_T
Now can said almost every week also has some issues haix...
make me feel so stress because always need to be 10x times more cautious so that there is no mistake happened.

What is the enjoyment that I had on March, April and May?
Let's begin the journey.

March

There is promotion at The Manhattan Fish Market. Yao Hong, Sam and I went there for lunch and we ordered 4 fish and chips, OMG it is freaking cheap! Because one for RM6.99 only wahahaa!! Saw the waiter? XD They even put the "Advertisement" on their back haha!

Another promotion that I went with Li Cheang. One for RM10 only. But there is only 3-4 choices. Still it is more than enough for us hehe. Unfortunately the squid is Sux! =.= And after that we just knew that if we ordered that promotion food, the dessert will be 50% discount! Argh! We were sad after heard that!

It is my very 1st time went to Empire Mall at Subang, Ray, Yao Hong and I were very boring and we go and find some new mall to walk around hehe. And we found that there is quite a lot of restaurant there.
This is one of the cake shop we tried. It's Whisk Expresso Bar & Bake Shop. Not bad for the cake, very full and T_T quite expensive! The right side is the attraction of the Mall, it is the world tallest indoor spiral tube slide. RM12 once, 5 second only =.=|||.

April

We went to Senjyu at The Curve for Xing Yao and Wai Howe's birthday. It is Japanese cuisine and we regretted for choosing that restaurant.It is very expensive and the food is just fine. Sad enough. But at least everyone is happy hehe. This time we didn't buy cake, instead we buy cupcake! Haha! And luckily as well because most of us is very full! Some more it's been 5 years we have been known each other, almost every year also cake, so I don't feel like having cake for birthday celebration already. Hehe.

1st time go to Fahrenheit Neway, it is a gathering with Sam Ho after so long he came to KL work. haha! WOW The Neway IS FREAKING NICE!! Even the table and stairs have very nice design. Enjoy enjoy!!

The new ice cream we tried!! Wow it is really not bad!!! Love it!! Especially the wafer!! Haha!! There is a lot of flavor. You can choose any mixture you love to mix with. There is brownie, chocolate, berries, topping, then it will mix mix mix then tada!! haha! It is very nice, should try it if have the chance.

Bubba Gump promotion! 3rd item of your ordering will be free. Damn!! It is sooooo prawn!! But seriously, at least need to try once for those who never tried before, really freaking nice man!!! I wish I can go again haha!! But T_T it is a little bit too expensive. Once in a while still can be accepted hehe. It's the day we treat Yao Hong after Li Cheang and I start working. He such a lucky ass haha!!

Company Outting to A Famosa Malacca. This is the 1st trip that I ever joined. We went to Malacca for 2 days 1 night. It is a nice outing!! Hehe. The feeling is so different from you having outing with friends. Different group different thought different feeling right? Haha. Unfortunately, =.=||| went to A Famosa but only spend the day at the swimming pool only. Stupid period stop me from joining them in the swimming pool!!! At least I became the photographer of the day hehe. Quite enjoying become a one day photographer because XD I'm holding a DSLR WAHAHAHAA!!

AHHHHHHH IT'S COMING IT'S COMING!!!! MY MOST EXCITED DAY!!! DAMN!! MY VERY 1ST CONCERT!!! IT'S MY 1ST SALARY!! I'M SOOOOOO HAPPY!!! FINALLY GET TO MEET MY XIAO ZHU!!!LUO ZHU XIANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHHAHAA!! Although it is really expensive but it is worth it. There is nothing wrong for treating myself good once in a while hehe. And I don't care, life is short!! I really can't believe i really did it!! I really got job! and and salary!! and GOING TO A CONCERT!!! WAHAHAHAHA!! The most irritating things is, stupid guard doesn't let us to bring camera!! But of course I smuggle inside and stupid, my seat is at the side, shit, all the guard around me. NOT HAPPY!! AND I JUST ALMOST GOT NEAR TO MY XIAO ZHU ... haix... Don't care! If there is another concert coming, I'M GOING AS WELL!! AND I WISH ONE DAY I CAN GO TO HIS CONCERT IN TAIWAN!! IT'S AWESOME!! YOU ARE THE BEST SHOW LUO ZHI XIANG!!! HEHE!!

May

It's a cafe at One Utama old wing, erm erm not bad actually. Just a normal asian restaurant.

We always thought this restaurant's dessert is quite nice but unfortunately, it is quite disappointed. I don't really like it but still I always saw a lot of customer enter My Honeymoon. Hehe. I prefer other dessert restaurant.

SweetHut actually not bad, we consider almost finished tried all their recommended dessert haha! There is even papaya + white egg + aloe vera. It is quite a lot, totally half of the papaya but it is at another SweetHut restaurant. The dessert in the picture is the dessert we tried at Bandar Puteri Puchong. After tried the other SweetHut at other place, I realize that, Bandar Puteri Puchong SweetHut has less choices and quality is a bit lower. Overall still can be acceptable haha! Yea I tried quite a lot of dessert, it is because everytime after our dinner I always want to hunt for dessert!! Too craving for it haha! T_T spent quite a lot as well. Now I'm trying to control my desire toward dessert haha!!

This is my very 1st album cover that I made! =.= Sorry it's bloody cacat and ugly. 1st attempt! And It has christmas feel right! It is because =.= I only left christmas color felt Haha!! Don't know what color I want to buy so just take the leftover to make it. Hehe. This is coin & currency album. When Sam bought it, the 1st thing strike in my mind is making album cover hehe. In the end, I only satisfy toward the $ and cent. HAHA!

After I bought the Hair bun accessories, I keep learn how to do the bun hair until I addicted. Some more when I saw this hair tie is so cute, I straight bought it and decorate my bun hair! Haha! I love the bun hair but I hate my fringe. =.=||| After so many years, I started to buy hair accessories haha! T_T I know I know, it is very wasting, but XD NO HARM TO DRESS UP MYSELF!! HAHA!! =.= excuses....

Saw the cute husky dog's head?? We saw the dog during our house hunting! Haha it is so cute! Now this scene happened just beside my house, =.= my neighbour's dog. He always pop out his head and look to our house. =.= cacat... Having our tea time at Paparich! Haha both of them hardly put the toast into their mouth because XD they have smaller mouth wahaha!! Yao hong eat until so dirty just like a kid! WAHAHAHAA! The 1st picture is my very 1st Pizza Cone at Sunway Pyramid, erm, not bad too, and it is another promotion food WAHAHAHA! As long as you shown them the advertisement of RM13 for two pizza cone with two free drinks!! XD then we can have cheaper Pizza cone! Yum! Hehe!

Again! KL, Having Levain Boulangerie & Patisserie as our breakfast! It is yummy yummy! (Sorry no promotion T_T, I only took 5 items and it cause me RM20+++).
This is the day we went to see Jay Chow, Nicholas Tse shooting the movie called 逆戰 at Raja Chulan there! Cool!! And wow! It is my very 1st experience to see people having movie shooting haha. Beside that we also saw 錢嘉樂 and 姜皓文!! Really unexpected!! Hehe, sorry no picture yet, all the more clearer picture in the Camcoder, I don't know how to copy it out because it is not belong to me. Hehe. Next time have chance I will have a short post at here. Stay tune! Hehe.

Yao hong said he saw this one online, look nice, so we go and have a bite! I didn't order ice cream type instead I go order milk yogurt, and T_T Yucks!! I cannot accept the taste! It is a drink that you can mix anything you like! Of course, the price is depend on how many topping and mixture you want to mix in. like that, very small only already cost me RM11! Wah seh =.=... For me if possible I tried not to have a 2nd try on the drinks lo. Sorry for those who love Snowshake. Everyone has different taste right?

Last but not least! FINALLY. Again, =.= wow so many first time again. I was being invited by my church friend for her wedding! It is a very nice wedding! And this is my very 1st wedding attempt that being invited by my own friend! (Consider as a friend lah haha). Her wedding is full of roses, it is her favorite flowers. My heels is so high! If the heels' size is fit, I really can walk with it! Haha! T_T Quite expensive leh and actually I regretted to buy this heels, I should buy that pokka dot vincci heels instead of this. That one match any dresses some more it is more fit for me. Nevermind haix. Ok back to the wedding, after having the wedding ceremony, we went to the hotel's ball room to have our wedding dinner, wow, although the design not really my cup of tea, but I quite satisfy for the whole event!! Haha! Can you believe it, this girl is only 22 years old this year!! And the guy is 32 years old!! Hehe, both of them are totally two different person but love brought both of them together! It's amazing. God bless them hehe. Congrates again to Alvin and Jacqueline.

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This is how I've gone through my whole 3 months after I started to work! Actually there is more but due to my camera is not function very well, so I didn't took a lot of pictures. I don't care, after few months I'm going to get myself a new camera!! Can't wait for it!! Must buy with my own salary!! That is my another wish list for this year hehe. Beside that, soon I'm going to get a new phone!! I'm so happy, seems like finally I'm going to get something that at least not that outdated and totally new!!! Hehe! What camera am I going to buy? Shhhh, it's a secret hehe, O.O phone? no no no XD it's a secret as well!!! Stay tune to my blog and I will let you know when I got it!! Hehe. But for those who knows me, they already knew what phone and camera I'm going to get =.=

Wow, so fast the time flies, it's already June =.= and it's been ages since the last time I update my blog. AND I'M HAPPY FINALLY I HAVE FINISHED THIS POST!! HAHA!! Don't worry, I will tried to be hardworking to edit my photos and have new post on other interesting and uninteresting stuff. Hehe.

Thanks for your time!!

P/s: T_T I'm broke and can't wait for end of the month! haha!!

這樣的我

2011-05-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

偶爾，就是喜歡這樣的自己

一直，都喜歡那樣的他 ♥

羅志祥

我和你不並不熟

2011-03-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

遇到自己不熟悉的語言，

只是讓我疏遠人群溝通。

稚氣呢？還是傻氣？

2011-03-27T22:50:00.006+08:00

無法擺脫帶有稚氣的我，

像個小孩子一樣。

或者可說成，

帶有傻氣的我吧。

縂覺得，偶爾會讓人覺得很無奈，

覺得我就是長不大。

但是呢，

這樣才能隱藏那原來的我。

我沒有你想象的那麽堅強

2011-03-11T00:06:00.001+08:00

一點小事，心靈就很容易的受影響

一點小事，就想把自己藏起來

一點小事，眼眶就濕了起來

一點小事，就把自己啞巴了起來

一點小事，一點小事。。。

雖然只是一點小事，

還是會讓我擔心害怕

我，並不是你們想像的那麽堅強

It Changed.

2011-03-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

*Just can't get rid of my sight for looking what is going to come to me*

Things change although I just started to work for maybe two or three weeks?
I still remembered during my University life, normally there will be questions about:
"Hey have you finished your study?"
"Hey, when is your examination?"
"Hey when is your holidays?"
"Hey have you passed all your examination?"
and etc.

Nowadays, working life, the pop out question will be:
"Hey, how you come to work?"
"Hey are you OK with shift work?"
"Hey how you come to work?"
"Hey, where you stay and how much is the renter?"
"Hey do you have cars? Why don't get a car?"
"Hey 12 hours shift wor very charm wor are you OK with it? It's very unhealthy wor.."
and etc.

Eh hello, this is just my 1st job, no matter what anything you also need to start from the beginning what no matter how difficult or how tired is it.
I used to be choosy, the conclusion of being choosy, in the end it turned up slapping your own mouth.
So, whatever obstacle coming, I just need to get rid the obstacle wall, that's the only way that I can do now.
Even there is any mistake, I don't wish it to be big, I just too scared to handle big problems.
Even there is a mistake, let it be small, I will be double careful for the next time.

So far, there is no bully during my shift.
They are very friendly just, sometimes, doesn't like they way they "playing"
Yeah, I'm a person that doesn't know how to differentiate joke and serious.
And I'm very sensitive person.
Hey! I'm still in a learning process!
Just felt that, sometimes, those pressure that seniors had before, that is a past!
It doesn't mean that you must take a revenge and let me have the exact same pressure.
I just can't work under pressure, but no matter what I will tried.
Just like I'm being arranged into the Hong Kong account that I needed to speak Cantonese fluently while currently I have a really big problem in speaking Cantonese. What can I do?
I'm not born to speak in Cantonese!
So DON'T EVER JUDGE ME, JUST LIKE WHAT I SAID, I'M STILL IN THE LEARNING PROCESS.
I TRIED MY BEST FOR EVERYDAY!
=.=|||

Ya I said before I wanted to keep as low-profile as I could.
In the end, nah, =.= they are too friendly until I cannot stay as low-profile!
=.= ish...
Still, sometimes if I remembered, I will avoid for being too talkative.
Do the right thing, Say the right thing.
=.=|||

Tomorrow the team is going to celebrate a farewell party for Wei Yee, a very keng seniors in the team that worked for 3 years in the company.
After rejected for few persons, =.= in the end I still didn't manage to have a full reject. Sien...
Need to trouble another person to fetch me.
That's why I don't want to join any of their outing because it is too troublesome to fetch me already.
Most of them staying far away from Cyberjaya.

It's not a very long since the day I start working,
there is some internal issue spreading to me =.=|||
Just realize, oh...... what is the political issue they were talking about all the while haha!!
Erm erm... Maybe a little more longer I will know more about it ba...
Don't worry! I will zip it!!
Shhhhhh....
Must be learn how to be secretive hehe..

Actually there is an English test for today but I don't know why in a sudden my manager told me that there is no need for me to take the test already.
Why? I didn't bother to ask more about it because XD I'm too excited about it WAHAHAHAA!!
Finally!!!! hehe...
Where can let me to take the examination... T_T I have such a poor English... haix...

Just now I saw in the facebook that Desmond, the leng chai in our team said, I'm very hyper, but let see about it after one month.
I was wonder, if after one month I am still very active then how? Is he going to reward me with anything?
Active or not is depend on individual ma...
It depends on me who want to continue to be hyper or not ma.
XD I think he should said, XD Will I still actively around after having mistake? haha!!
I'm very emotional leh, beware about it haha!!

There is a lot of talk within me and some of the colleague.
Sometimes, I really felt I wanted to learn the way of 主持 from 蔡康永.
There is an episode in Mr.J 頻道 about him.
He mentioned about the way he 主持.
Actually I felt quite impressed toward him!
Now I wanted to learn.
Never have "I think" this toward others conversation.
Always change the "I" became "You".
Erm erm... if I did that among my friends or colleague, what will happened?
Let them have more talk instead of I have more talk.
Some more they can say out their feelings and release their inner stress beside can have more conversation.

Found out that there is much more for me to learn.
Actually I'm quite interested on Psychology studies but due to my laziness in reading,
I reject to study these kind of courses.
I just love in observing others.
Know more about them also can train yourself how to speak better without having any conflict.

Nowadays my brain started to have bad functioning.
I can't really have a very good in "think first before open the mouth"
By the time I realize, =.= it's almost the end of the conversation WAHAHAHAA!!!

On the other hand, recently there is few colleague keep fetching me back from work.
Although I kept on saying I don't want to trouble others,
still in the end, accept their offers.
T_T Haix.. Last time I just straight walked back but met Chua, one of my colleague on half way,
T_T he offered to fetch me, when I entered the car I got a little bit lecture from him T_T
He said next time ask others to fetch me =.=
On the next day he told some colleague it's very dangerous for me to walk like that in the middle of the night.
Waliao T_T make me so guilty...
I just don't want to owe so much 人情 even already start working.
What I owe is infinity.
I really hate to keep on trouble others...
Luckily I managed to reject them for offering fetching me to go to work.
I've received their 好意, just I felt not comfy about it.
I really don't know how to pay back to them...
Haix it just makes me felt so bad about it...

p/s: Just curious, why people always have a thought such as, get salary, got money then will finished spending. =.=||| Those who knows me should know what kind of person I am. =.= Even when I dare to spend, heartache and worry still chasing behind me... And... I already got my very 1st salary but, why I doesn't feel happy about it? Some more even ignored about it... The feelings is totally different from my internship, got money then very very happy... Why? I just don't get it :(

*what the heck am I talking about... =.= I'm sorry, just wanted to have a place to release my thought.*

可以嗎？

2011-03-08T10:48:00.001+08:00

煩惱

憂愁

心悶

不樂

一切都從來沒停止過

可以停止一切嗎？

或者別插入我的世界可以嗎？

或者別管我可以嗎？

或者別讓我成爲中間人可以嗎？

讓我有自己的思想可以嗎？

我想要有自己的空間可以嗎？

Not A Bad Thing

2011-03-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

*Anyone realize that there is a love shape that produced by the light reflect? hehe*

Sometimes think that working is not bad also,

at least it normalize my daily life.

Ok exclude if I have to work night shift.

It doesn't normalize my night life T_T

At least if during daily life,

I won't just sit in front of the computer and didn't bath for whole day.

Don't worry, XD at least I have forced myself to eat my meal haha!

Because it is a must to eat!

Just XD not taking bath and lazy to do housework WAHAHAHA!!

First Off Day After I Started My Real Job!

2011-03-02T15:42:00.001+08:00

Off day for 2 days! Today and tomorrow!

Unfortunately, tomorrow I need to go to office for some boring training.

Blah, sien...

After that will be continuous 3 days NIGHT SHIFT!!!

Wah lau!!

And there is a lot of employee kept on asking me about "am I ok with night shift job?"

=.= Since I accepted the offer means I'm don't care so much lah...

Although not all of the employee there I like to mix with,

AND I tried not to have too close with them.

Just, they are too friendly until sometimes you tend to forgot your own rules in new company!

Haix, irresistible for their friendliness.

Beside that, not to say they are very take care of me,

just, they will tried not to let me go back by my own especially night time after working hour.

I kept on rejecting them because it's still ok for me to walk to the bus stop by my own.

T_T In order to let me ride with them, they will waited for me!

=.= It makes me so guilty about it!

Ahhh.. I just don't like to trouble others.

And yesterday just knew that manager, Chua, even have a daughter already!

Is it for a guy that entered 30++ must have a family and career?

Sound like too early for them.

And he even have his own house already!

=.= Really rich ass...

Nah just kidding, I know, it's normal for them to have a house especially A Manager!

Can guess how much is their salary for one month and their experience for the life.

Oh ya I forgot to mentioned in my last blog post.

On my first day of working I already entered a Mazda3 NEW CAR!! HAHA!!!

Unfortunately, I doesn't felt that is something special about that car. =.=

Although Su (my penang's friend aka S-gang) has very old Toyota car but it's more comfy than that Mazda.

Sorry to say that HAHA!!!

Yesterday training is the other person who trained me.

And surprisingly he is not from our team, again is another 代班.

Actually I don't like keep changing shadower.

I prefer have same person.

But for others they think have different person is better.

I need to get use to it leh =.=|||

Doesn't very feel very happy for the working.

Started to felt that I don't really like office work.

Last time I still thought i love to work in office, at least no need to work under the HOT sun right?

Recently the sun very painful leh! =.=

But since already started to work in the office at least I don't really care to walk under the sun haha!

Because I know that most of the time I'm in the office haha!!

Office work, not colorful enough, not creative enough, everything is very paper, very documentation, very ...

I don't know just doesn't have the feelings toward it.

Since nothing to do so almost everyday I planned for my next one year plan! Wahaha!!!

Haix... Now I just wanted to go out and see something colorful, fresh air!

I don't want to stay in Malaysia for the past may be 30 years? 40 years? 50 years?

At least have few years I'm not in Malaysia ba =.=|||

Temporary thinking of New Zealand haha!

Even not enough money at least can buy the flight ticket what.

Hopefully there is "no other people" lecturing about my plan again.
I won't say much about my plan about it.

Just will mentioned about the places.

Only may be one or two people will know about my actual plan.

I just don't want any other people to spoil my future plan again or spoil my guts!

I HAVE THE RIGHT TO MAKE MY OWN DECISION!

(Although felt want to write out just, doesn't feel it's very right to mention it before I success)

人生有幾個十年？？？

I wanted to do something that I never done it before!

I wanted to try something new!

I just loved randomize!

I just loved changes!

Haha!

At least now my closet starting to have something that I never tried before thanks to Sam! Haha!

And =.= I'm not happy for it because he has better sense of fashion than me.

=.=|||

Currently what I needed is, NEW HIGH HEELS!!!

I wore my the-only-heels that I have for everyday to the office!

Ok lah not consider those casual heels.

More like office working formal heels.

T_T Everyday also walk here and there by using that heels, everyday also split by water.

=.=||| I don't know how much life span the heels have left haha!!

Ya I know I'm working already, but I'm still using parent's money.

BUT! Not from the bank, it's all ang pow money =X
But after finished all the ang pow money, I'm going to start using my OWN SALARY!

So temporary those money majority I spent on food, and those supplementary.

Of course some grocery as well and transportation.

I need to restock my grocery also leh =.=...

OMG =.= sound like I'm a pure housewife (YAYA I know a lot of people already said I am. =.=)

Eh hello I haven't married leh!!! =.=|||

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Last weekend, actually I wanted to update my blog unfortunately I don't know why after came back from OneU, suddenly the internet cannot works!

We don't know what happened to the internet.

Then called for TM to rescue!

Luckily the internet start working on Monday!!

Not bad for the service huh? haha...

Ok I know it's another very boring post, and very poor english =.= until I don't know what title should I put.

Some more started to have a lot of working stuff =.=

What to do, =.= in the office you can't have complain about this and that,

you only can have the murmur at here or within your close friends.

Beside that, I just wanted to continue blogging so that:

1. At least there is some place for me to have "Complain"

2. I don't want to lost the feelings of blogging!

3. Share a lot of stuff with others.

Last but not least, I hope that I will manage to save a lot of money for traveling!!!

I just can't wait for it!

p/s: XD enjoying Domino's Pizza for my lunch! All delivery is closed today, sien... I know it's quite expensive but, T_T it's been ages since the last time I have a bite on pizza! Let me enjoy it lah T_T

Guilty, Tired, Frustrated

2011-02-28T23:23:00.001+08:00

Guilty, tired, frustrated

Guilty:

T_T Today there is a colleague, Foo, offering to fetch me but T_T... I rejected.

When I done packing my stuff from the locker,

I went out and I saw no one outside, so ...

T_T I just went off like that.

But I walked outside the road just in case he was searching for me...

Who knows met the manager, Chua.

He offered to fetch me, haiya.. so cincai lah...

When I entered the car, T_T having a small conversation, he said T_T he saw Foo went toilet......

I straight like, OMG!!!! OMG!!!! HOW HOW!!! OMG!!!

I'M SO WORRIED HE WAITED FOR ME AND WAITED FOR NOTHING!!! OMG OMG!!!

SO DAMN FREAKING GUILTY!!! ARGH!!!

Haix... tonight will be another night I have bad night, T_T

I felt so guilty................ I don't have his hp number also...

Cannot contact him.. So I sms-ed another colleague and asked her to help me to check up...

T_T I don't know will she did it or not,

I just think she wouldn't ba... T_T haix

1st day working already like that..........................

Tired:

I don't know why I just did nothing for whole day but when I came back I just felt so tired and headache...

May be stayed in the office for too long already ba...

Some more Mr. Pimple came and find me. Ish...............

Sien betul...

Frustrated:

Waliao, so many stuff need to do at once,

although there is a time gap, still, so many step.

Beside that not only that, there is more!

=.=||| hopefully I managed to it "Just A Click".

Is like is a very simple task for me.

Haix...

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Then this morning, OMG! 1st day of work I already late!

=.=||| what the heck....

Stupid bus!! Just waited and kept on waited there is NO Shutter 2 at all!!!

What's wrong with the bus today!!!

I forced to use U429 to another station and walked far away to the office. Sien...

When I reached the office I looked so MESSED!

So embarrassing!!!

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=.=|||

And since Sunday I cannot online until today!

Luckily today I can online.

Or else T_T I don't know where can I release my mumbling.

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Going to have another shadower for tomorrow,

there's again another 9 hours work time.

My eyes are exhausted.

I have been facing big screen computer for the whole day...

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That's all for today.

Good night everyone.

p/s: It is already very late, so I didn't managed to search for suitable photos and edit it for today.

A Freaking Bloody Rotten Day!!!

2011-02-24T20:57:00.004+08:00

"Argh!!! I'm FREAKING exhausted!!!!"

*Krik Krik Krik* (Film has been pause from moving)

Ah har! Curious about what I wrote? And why my title stated until like that?

The story goes like this...

(I will be written the stories out in point form to shorten the stories)

- Early of the day, around noon, went to Maybank, again! Wrong timing, I chased the bus again.

- Met a very rude and black faces of the employee there, and her services is SUCKS TO THE MAX!

- Luckily changed to another employee to continue dealing with the open account counter. (She's ROCKS! And both are same races)

- Lunch has nothing bad about it, BUT waited for Shutter 2 bus for =.= quite long!

- Ok very fast passed the Maybank new account letter to the HR.

- Rushing out from office for the next bus.

- OMG SAW THE BUS AND RUN ONCE AGAIN CHASING THE BUS!

- Realize it's a false alarm, rested at one of the bus stop, =.= and realize, IT'S NOT A FALSE ALARM! OMG IT'S REALLY THE BUS shit... unable to chase back the bus.......

- When going to go back to the bus stop that I rested, =.= another bus passed by................................. AHHHHH =.=................................. ok I missed the bus, and walked to another bus stop just in front KFC..........

- Putrajaya sentral: Nothing happened and managed to get in the bus no.300! that's the fastest bus to Alamanda!

- Happily found the Vaseline for lips! There is promotion as well!!!

- Went to have a window shopping for a while.

- Went to buy some groceries and it cost me not little =.=|||

- And it's so heavy! Because of the apples and vitagens and eggs!!!!

- Nevermind, bought Secret Recipe for Sam's dessert, and realize =.= my grocery plastic bag had spoiled!!!

- Good timing, it's raining, I'm hugging my groceries with both hand and I didn't have any other hand to carry my umbrella, in the end, walked under the rain to the bus stop. Romantic huh? =.=

- Back to Putrajaya Sentral, caught a bus and It's written U42" " .......... and I thought I saw U429!

- Entered the bus happily until I realize how come the route is different from usual.

- When reached Serdang and asked the bus driver, just realize =.= I was in bus U42 instead of U429!!!! OMG!! The bus driver pity me =.=|||

- And I sat for more than one hour in that "unknown" bus until I finally got to back to Putrajaya Sentral.

- Again! Almost missed the BUS!!!! Again!! I ran to the bus!!!

- And I really don't know what is the time! Because my HP out of batteries!! And I didn't bring my watch along!!!

- I'm cold until I was shivering, I'm tired, I'm hungry, MOST importantly, I WANTED TO PEE!!!

- FINALLY I GOT BACK CYBERJAYA! FASTER BOUGHT DINNER AND FASTER WALKED BACK HOME!

- In the end =.= I managed to go to the toilet but already pee a little bit on my undies..........................

- ARGH!!! I'M FREAKING EXHAUSTED!!!

Ah har! Now you know what happened already!
Once I done everything, except bathing,
I straight away on my netbook and start writing this post!
I worried I will forgotten the stories after I finished bathing.
Really a Freaking rotten day right!!!
Chasing around the bus, met the bad service of the employee, ride the wrong bus for MORE THAN ONE HOUR only realize I was on the wrong bus, don't even know the time, HP no more battery, pee on the undies......
Challenging huh? =.=|||
And I don't wish it happened in another day!
Because! IT'S REALLY VERY TIRED FOR KEEP WAITING AND SITTING AND ROUND AND AROUND FOR THE BUS!!!
It's not like you are in Singapore, the bus will come for every 5 minutes!
In Malaysia, once you missed the bus, YOU MUST WAIT FOR ANOTHER, don't know may be more than 20 minutes????
Yeah Yeah I know I shouldn't run or chase for the bus while I cannot run due to my weak heart, BUT, I DON'T WANT TO WAIT UNDER THE HOT WEATHER JUST FOR A BUS!!!

I'm freaking smelly for sweating like you just finished an extreme exercise leh!!!
It's really so uncomfortable you know!

I know I know sure you guys will said me such a clumsy and blur person.
Yet! Yes I am! So what! =.=|||
Normally I will be happy about it because it's something new for me for sitting in a bus that I never sat before.
But today is different case.
I was really exhausted until I don't have any mood to have any further explore. =.=|||

The End

Thanks for spending your time to read my silly day story!

Finished Training!

2011-02-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

Finally Finally Finally!!!
6 Days training is calling a day!!! yeah yeah!!!
Unfortunately...
Learnt too much thing on that 6 days until... T_T only half enter my mind...
And I didn't knew that actually that Constructor = Trainer = Manager is already 40++ years old!! OMG!!!
Because he doesn't look like!!!!!
He looks like he just 30++ years old only!!!
Argh...

Yeah yeah I know it supposedly happy because finally the training is finished.
I doesn't felt happy because I don't think I can catch up those job very fast although they already gave us fully training.
I'm not a fast learner! I'm not a person that can fully concentrated!
And today quizzes!! OMG!!! More than half I was wrong!!!
But luckily previous quizzes I'm not the poorest among all but T_T I think today's quizzes will be the poorest among all... T_T ahhh sad sad...

I won't be working tomorrow and I'm not sure why, but I'm going to be on board on next Monday!
Ahhh hopefully I won't forgot all those lecture that have been taught.

Although I'm going to have 4 days off from tomorrow until this Sunday,
but still, T_T I don't think I will have real off day T_T
I have unfinished laundry to do, unfinished chores, need to go Maybank collect my account number and gave to HR, then need to go to the Panel Clinic that I went last few weeks for the medical check up to make sure about my health.
T_T I need a real medical check up!!! Sad sad...

I don't know what will happen in future, but...
I just wish there is not much issue will happened to me...
Because... T_T I scared of mistake!
Although we always need to learn from mistake...
T_T Now is in different cases leh... T_T

*Tap Tap Tap* Ahh.. I heard the "Real Job" is coming...

Going-to-be-deal-with-Cantonese??

2011-02-22T20:23:00.001+08:00

*Fell in love with this photo a lot when I 1st captured it in Cameron!*

Still remember what I mentioned yesterday about, working and go back home?
=.= Today I followed one of colleague's car to go back Cyberia.
Why? =.= Because he offered T_T and I haven't reached the bus stop yet =.=||| sien..............
Some more yesterday the one who offered to fetch me have been rejected by me.
But yesterday was in different situation!
The bus already there and I was at the bus stop already!
T_T Sorry Mr.

Ahhhh felt frustrated about today's training.
And I WAS NOT HAPPY FOR THE DEPARTMENT I WERE BEING ARRANGED!
IT IS IN HONG KONG'S DEPARTMENT!! ARGH!!!
NOT HAPPY NOT HAPPY AT ALL AND I ALREADY CAN GUESSED IT SINCE THERE IS ONLY TWO CHINESE!!!
T_T... The main intention for me to enter that company is at least I can improved my english especially in writing and speaking in the end end up in that Cantonese speaking department!! Sien!!!

But! After calm down, on a second thought, may be there is something about I were being signed in the department I don't want at all.
Nah, it's ok lah, at least at the same time I can tried to improve both of my language, that is Cantonese and English.
That trainer said those employee used to be like me, not good in Cantonese.
Now, speak even better than any other Cantonese in Malaysia!
Their Cantonese are totally just like Hong Kie! (Hong Kie means Hong Kong's people. I don't know how to spell it out, I only knew how to spell it)
=.= I don't think I can be that keng lah
Felt like it might be not an impossible mission for them but sound like impossible mission for me =.=|||
I always not good in learning language.
Then after that I told that trainer what I had thought about.
Then he also said that, I can also improved my English by writing those emails.
Because all those emails of course required in English.
=.= Actually I were quite excited about offshore account (that's mean foreign account such as UK, US, DE and so on) but, my English standard still far away from that standard...
Sad sad :(

On the other hand, still remembered that irritating guy I mentioned before also in my previous's post?
Bloody Hell, never seen such a thick face person,
and MOST SCARY THING IS!
THE WHOLE WEEKEND HE KEEP STALK ON MY FB AND SAID WHY EVERYTIME SAW YOUR STATUS KEEP PENDING WALIAO!!!
=.= People don't want to add you mah don't want lah!
waliao....
Shit you know =.=|||

XD Despite all the terrible thing for today,
XD wow!! XD I met one leng chai!! Finally!!!
Nah, he is not from Malaysia! Is foreigner!
I heard seem like he is from Netherland!! hehe!
Damn! He is freaking tall!!!
After lunch I went to the lift and suddenly he came out from the lift!!
OMG!!! I can't stop turning my head behind!!
XD Hey, I know I look like a pervert, but hey, it's a foreigner!
Foreigner always attracted my attention hehe.
And because of that I almost knocked the lift door =.=|||
What a shame =.=|||

Xiao zhu coming to Pavillion on this Friday!!!
T_T it's 7.30 at night?????? waliao... =.=|||
Later I lost in the middle of KL T_T...
Anyone? Car pool? hehe!!!

Note: Last day of training tomorrow! And I will be start working on next Monday! huhu! Others start working on thursday =X

AhhhhhHHHh Dehhhhhh!

2011-02-21T19:52:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhh... I totally don't understand what is the training about today.
So not-in-the-mood of listening to the class because I cannot catch up with the training.
Haix... I felt so bored!! I felt so lazy to attend another few more trainings!
T_T... Today quizzess is the worst, I totally don't know how to do for the structure part.
Sound so familiar right! Just like how I was during the university time =.=|||

Ahhhhh.... Tonight need to do revision for today's training!
Of course, from the beginning of the training because on the last day it will be covered all of the 6 days of what we had learnt!
Actually I'm very worried I can't even passed the quizzes.
T_T They still said there never had failed employee T__________T this stressed me up!!

Ahhhh... Now the only things that can relaxing my mind and my body and my heart is, on the way back by sitting in the bus. T_T
It is because, in the company I can't stop learning thing.
When back to home it means it's time to study or it's time to prepared for the next day.
T_T...
Besides that, there is no need to have any communication with anyone!
I rejected my going-to-be my manager colleague for car pooling that he had offered.
Part of the reason is because I don't like troublesome others.
Another part of the reason is my bus is coming already.
And another another part of the reason is, T_T I don't want to have any communication or any close relationship with colleagues.
It may be can make you easier for the next 6 months but, still, avoiding lah...

Ahhhhh.... Ok I take back my words, although there is nothing to do staying at home doing the same thing everyday, but T_T at least better than everyday learning the new things...
Some more is not something colorful or creativity.
It's something fix and MUST to learn!

Ahhhh... So everyday I keep on reminding myself, nevermind nevermind, at least learn something better than none right??
We must improve ourselves!
Still... not the field I love...
It is just something basic that I must learnt 1st.
And "Basic" is something that I always missed out in my whole life.

Lesson for today: Not to ask question that doesn't relate to the training/work. Just go to work and then go back. That's all.

Etiquette

2011-02-20T13:01:00.003+08:00

Again, I lost my temper.

Although it's just 3 days training in that company,
seriously, learnt quite a lot of things.

One of it is about Phone Etiquette.
No matter how rude is that customer, how vulgar is that customer or client,
We always deal with them with smiling and calming feelings.

If it doesn't work,
take a break!

Another is the experience from the trainer.
There is once, he received an e-mail from his boss.
There is some misunderstanding around.
That e-mail was really pissed him off!
However, he didn't replied that e-mail immediately.
He took a break, until the next day, he went back to the e-mail.
And start replied that e-mail calmly.
The result is, it's ended perfectly!
The lesson for this story to us is, NEVER reply or answering or have any action whenever you were having negative feelings.
It might has big consequences that you need to bare it with.

I always deal things with my feelings especially when I was in very bad mood.
I always wanted to end things very quickly and don't care about others feeling.
And I wanted to apologize about it.
I'm sorry.
I am just poor in dealing with my attitude.

What I wish to gain from this company?
One of it is,
I wish it can "cure" my bad etiquette that I had.
I must deal with my own temper and attitude before I start to deal with others.
No one can help up unless we ourselves start the foot step.

Vintage Effect

2011-02-19T12:08:00.001+08:00

A short update before going for my lunch.
After so long, I finally learnt about Vintage!
It is effect that I've been searching how to do it!
Finally I found the way how to make that effect while I'm searching for the plug in for PAINT.NET

It's an old photo effect and I just knew about the real name for that effect is called Vintage.
I'm glad I found it! May be it doesn't seem like an old photo effect for some people but for me, it is!
Here is the website that taught us how to make the Vintage Effect.
It applied for PAINT.NET users.

The photo that I have uploaded on the top is the photo I'm testing for the effect.
That is my sister as a model that I took during my Chinese New Year celebration in Singapore.
Amanda is her name. If anyone realize, her name also started with the letter "A" just like my name "Ashley". :p
Where is that place? It's just opposite Clark Quay hehe.

Enjoy your lunch guys!

p/s: for this photo I didn't fully followed the website I have shown. Because a little bit changes make it feel right for myself hehe.

p/s: And I'm sorry for the text doesn't look nice on where it has placed. T_T I don't know where to put to make it looks nicer T_T

3rd Day Of Training

2011-02-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

Just a blink and there, finished my 3rd day training in that new company.
Wow! Really unexpectedly fast right????
Is that mean that 6 months probation will be finished very soon? Haha.
Doesn't care when it's going to finish, the most important thing is, the process.
Just like you entered university or college, is not the matter of you getting a degree cert.
Is a matter of the process while going through all the degree years.
What have you learnt? What have you gain? What have you found? What have you studied?

Although it's quite tiring and annoying when you couldn't catch up fast during the training but when you started to catch up some, it's really a happy thing!
I love to learn new things but not the thing I don't like.
But unexpectedly, I quite love the training.
I have learnt a lot of new words, just need to get used to it.
Ahhhh sorry I can't list it out because I can't recall the spelling! Oh Sugar Honey Ice Tea!
It's ok, slow and steady.
I'm sooooo worried the trainer or other trainee will think I'm very bad in learning and keep wanting them to repeat and repeat.
I have no choice! I must ask!
Or else T_T I don't know what will happened when I'm on board.
Since they kept on mentioning don't afraid to ask question, don't afraid to ask for repeating. We all are learning. There is nothing wrong about it.
Ok lo, XD I'm still train my guts.
Since they also ask us must have self-confident, so that customer can have faith on us, or anything, I forgot already =.=|||
Nah don't bother about it. T_T I will improve myself more in the future!

Except for the training, there is a guy! in the company! same is a trainee as me. AHHh just hate him a lot =.=||| and I suspecting he is trying to woo me! which I wish it is not true!!!
I don't want to say more about him here, because =.= I don't want to have my whole blog all about him =.=||| irritating person.

Skip him!!

I'm so happy about wearing nice to the company unfortunately I'm having problem in, of course $$$$!
I cannot simply shop clothes with my dad's money because his money is meant for my health.
Those office lady really T_T omg... it's a "everyday" I noticed about their clothing!
I must learn more about wearing and clothings!
Some more XD I'm going to get myself a mini skirt!!!!! New heels!! New bras!!! New dresses!!!
Hehe. the company allowed girls to wear mini skirt on friday! wah! it's surprise me hehe..
But still I need to wait around one or two months for the salary.
Because I need to save money!!! Save save save!!!! =.=|||
Sad...
It's ok, few months only ma, wearing something other people not wearing anymore to the company I felt so...... =.=|||
But now, I think I might start to love dresses because, T_T wearing top and bottom different is so uncomfortable!
Because the top part keep came out! Need to keep tucking in the top T_T

Anyway, it's weekend!
After this week, I don't know when will be my next weekend already.
T_T... Shift work.... My nightmare but...
No choice, I need to work, I need money, I need to improve myself from basic!
Something I no need to spend money but only have income! hehe!
Have a nice weekend everyone!

First Day

2011-02-16T22:14:00.001+08:00

First day went to work OMG =.=||| almost late already. Reached there at 9am sharp!
Omg! It's a lot of document to read and sign!
OMG! There is so much to learn!
T_T it's so many short form! T_T it's burning my mind..
At least it has a nice pantry hehe!
It will be normal working hour during this 6 days.
So I will be working like normal working people.
T_T ahhhh.. there is quiz everday! too much to absorb T_T
haix...I just worried I can't cope with the work...
And I heard that Show Luo going to Pavillion on next friday, that is 25.02. T_T omg! I wish I were there!!!
T_T I don't know, let see how the fate will arrange me with him ba. T_T Sad sad...

I'm so lazy to study T______________T sien!!!
There is no photos for this post.

p/s: Suddenly feel weird for my post without any picture hehe.

A New Chapter Of Life Begins

2011-02-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow I'm going to start my new chapter of life.

Doesn't feel very happy about it.

Just hope that I won't give any troublesome.

Wish me luck.

Valentine

2011-02-14T14:12:00.002+08:00

今天是情人節

送滿天星， Gypsophila Elegans 給大家吧

滿天星的花語是：思念，清純，夢境，真心喜歡

無論是情人們，還是單身漢足，

都祝你們有個夢幻的一天

商傢們呢，今天財神爺來拜訪咯哈哈！

Free Flow Food Updated!

2011-02-13T21:11:00.003+08:00

Updated another FREE FLOW FOOD!!! Haha!!
No lah I'm not that bad lah XD I have system barter with them XD
Yesterday got few cookies and orange from Li Cheang, this morning got some Ipoh famous food from Stephen~~ hehe!! Happy Happy!!! Now my room is really full of food =.=|||

*From Li Cheang! There is 4 kind of cookies inside!!! hehe!!*

*From Stephen!*

*From Brother!*

*From Sister and Dad!*

A lot of food right!!!

If any of you want to give me more also can wahahaha!!

=.= I just worried I can't finish all of it only =.=|||

At least better than nothing to eat right?

Just the room is quite hot recently worried the food will spoil T_T

Any of you want to have a bite of all the food also can come and visit me wahaha!!

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day!
I'm sure a lot of couple, single, parents, anything double have own plan right?
XD nah, as usual I don't have any plan =.= at least I've got my early Valentine's present WAHAHA!!

After "holiday" for so long, finally I going to step my foot into the cruel world!! T_T
There is only 3 days left T_T sad sad sad, suddenly I missed my holiday =.=|||

p/s: Sorry again, I didn't edit the photo, it's dark

左右爲難

2011-02-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

向左走也不是，向右走也不是

向前走也不是，向後走也不是

左右，都好爲難

這個人生，到底是我的，還是他人的呢？

覺得，做的每一件事，都是以他人所願

那麽，我所願的呢？

讓我停下腳步好好的思考可以嗎？

Back To The Reality World

2011-02-11T15:00:00.001+08:00

*Ahhhh! I just loved this photo a lot =.=|||, I took it in the plane XD*

Finally ended one week Singapore Trip.
Actually T_T almost everyday I went out with my dad and sister.
My mom and brother cannot take to walk long hour so they didn't joined us for the adventures.

It doesn't went well for the 1st few days I reached there.
I thought everything will ended when I got a job already.
But nah, I was wrong.
And we got bad news on the 1st day in Singapore.
We went to see an old man for massaging.
It turned out to be a disaster.
There is nothing wrong to my dad and mom, when it came to me, he said I have low blood pressure and fast heart beat, it's a symptom of heart attack.
Normal people is heart beat = 60++, blood pressure = 120++
Mine, heart beat = 112, blood pressure = 104 or lower...
I cannot exercise, I cannot eat fried stuff, I cannot have red meat, I must eat fish oil supplement.
I must have fruits, oatmeal, oat bread, and half boiled egg as breakfast.

*My successful half boiled egg!! haha! Yesterday's half boiled egg is just like the one they ate in Old Town, ewwwww =.=*

Rice, vege and lean pork for lunch.
Dinner, oat meal? didn't eat, anything, =.= I don't know...
and I need to gain 4kg to balance.
If I didn't listen to him, I might not live until 40 years old...
It made my dad bloody sad...
It makes me cried for 3 nights too. T_T
And I need to go back Singapore for that old man to check every 1 month.
Really will broke T_T ... Not that I am rich also.
But at least after one month, I can support myself by using my OWN SALARY!
Yeah that's right, I've got a job!
Nah, just a lower level job, and i worked shift.
Hopefully Mr. Pimple won't come back and find me T_T...

After got back from Singapore, My room is full of food!!! XD
So happy!!
From my hometown friend, from my sis, from yao hong, from sam's mother XD now I just waited for li cheang and stephen's food only WAHAHAHA!!

*3 of this from hometown friend*

*From Yao Hung*

*From Sam*

*From sis*

There is also pork jerky(肉乾) 3 packs of it!!!

Beside that, after came back =.= there is another non-stop traveling, ahhh I'm so tired..
I went to medical check up at Bandaraya station, Bangunan KWSP there.
Wow =.=||| A lot of people =.=|||
I thought it will be very fast, who knows =.= 2 hours T_T
=.= I didn't know that there is breast checking also =.=||| luckily no need to remove all, they just need to make sure there is no lump. Wonder if there is any will he tell us? Because he didn't mentioned about my blood pressure also.
Then x-ray, waliao, that indian nurse so harsh =.=||| sien...
After that I went to Midvalley, T_T luckily Yao Hong offer to fetch me at KTM Serdang or else T_T I might need to carry the bloody heavy grocery all the way home. T_T
I bought 12 bottle of Chicken Brand, Waliao eh... it's so heavy!!!!
And all the stuff really eat a lot of my money =.=||| still not until RM500 ba...
T_T no choice... who the hell ask my health is so terrible...

=.= back to the house still need to do the chores... WAH!!! I'm so tired!!!

p/s: Sorry the picture is dark, I didn't edit the picture.

陰

2011-02-02T17:35:00.001+08:00

以爲一切會比較好，

哪知，

那只是噩夢的開始。

淚珠，

不停的在眼眶裏打轉。

心裏，

不停的在撲通撲通。

笑容，

不停的在收縮。

心靈，

不停的在受傷。

眼前的路，

變成更複雜的迷宮。

我，

該如何走出來。。。

Another DIY + A Date With Sibling

2011-01-30T23:48:00.004+08:00

Finally!!! Around 2 hours!!! I finally done another DIY!!!

Happy Happy!!!

T_T Haix I'm still not good in sewing.

No matter how many times I start sewing, sure will be stucked by needle.

Curious about what I have done? haha!!

Let me show you about that it!!

*I still prefer that one consider front part because more like square strawberry haha!!*

YES!! IS A PORCH!! What kind of porch?

It's a porch to put my ezlink card. haha!!

Because it's very troublesome to keep take out the ezlink card in and out from the purse.

Some more I didn't find any nice card holder to put card.

So I decided to DIY one haha!!

*The 3 circles is the part I have added after that*

Yaya!! I know the back part not nice =.= ignore about it. Is my another 1st work, cant have too high demand.

XD can c there is an A? XD is my name!! Haha!!

I purposely sew it there!! Haha!!

*Final stage!! Put the card inside!! Haha!! Done!!!*

XD XD!! I hope =.=||| it can last very long =.=|||

I don't want it to be just like the other day, just bring out not for long it already spoil. Sien...

* * * * * * * * * *

Yesterday, I finally get to meet my sister at Time Square!!

=.= Her hair doesn't suit her but it makes her look younger and kiddy!! Haha!!

It's feel so nice to have such a kiddy face although already reach some ages wahaha!!

Before we start our window shopping, we went and searched for the booth of selling bus ticket.(My sis went back Singapore by bus)

Omg!! It took us 1 hour to find that stupid booth!!

It's a weird place. =.=

The Time Square guard said it's just beside 7-11.

=.= where got, there is nothing, then we went to the hotel and ask the counter.

The girl came out from the hotel and asked us just walked straight in front of Time Square.

=.=||| Luckily my sister have a sudden thought of turning her head to our left side.

Or else it might took us another hours to find the stupid booth. It's just downstair the escalator!! Below the monorial station!!! Stupid =.=|||

*Stupid booth =.=|||*

After that we were having some short shopping.

Nah, we didn't managed to buy anything.

I was not in the mood of shopping also, nothing much attract me.

And my sis was sad because her dress shop was no more there hoho!

I felt a bit disappointed as well because didn't have the chance to see how nice is the dress in the shop because my sis just loved that shop so much hehe...

We went to have beef noodle before my sis went back to singapore.

My sis introduce to us.

I ate before but it is in Malacca.

But at least the taste is nicer than the one we ate in Malacca last time.

We walked under small rain when on the way to that shop.

*It tasted salty but still nice, just near by Time Square*

After having dinner it's time to say goodbye to my sis..

Haix actually very "bu she de", miss her so much...

*Waving waving*

After sending my sis off brother and I went back home after purchasing Sam's stuff and dinner.

* * * * * * * * * *

It's been raining since yesterday.

The room is sooooooo chilly!!

It's very comfy just something missing T_T

I'm going to Singapore tomorrow.
Ahhhh I still have a lot of stuff haven't done yet I still blogging here haha!!

Because I wanted to share about the DIY I did!!! T_T

Tomorrow I need to wake up at 6 or 7 something because need to wash my hair T_T

Ahhh... I'm very lazy to go to bed now =.=|||
Ahhh... After come back from Singapore I have another DIY present need to do
Ahhh... T_T the company didn't call me again...
Ahhh... I forgot to DIY my passport cover!! =.=|||

Ahhh... Sien =.=

Anyway... Good night everyone!

Just A Quick and Random Post

2011-01-29T12:11:00.002+08:00

Having Dim Sum at OUG, Sri Petaling just now with Yih Chaw, Ray, Meng, Li Cheang, Yao Hong and Sam.

=.= they wanted to see the "Dai Bao" at there. (Means there is a girl who has big b**b)

XD I finally got the "Muachi" and "Jelly" from Li Cheang XD XD but it's actually stole by me muahahaha!!!

*Yummy Yummy*

* * * * * * * * * *

Beside that T_T I gave Li Cheang her birthday present. T_T ahhh going to get another one for myself!!

Because IT'S SO FLUFFFFFYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY OMG!!!!

XD I still made extra "Ang Pow" for her haha!!! It's my 1st time to DIY that too!! haha!!

Felt quite proud of myself muahaha!!!

*Again, IT'S SO FLUFFYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! T_T*

*Ahhhh my 1st work!! This time paper work is not my fav for temporary, XD thread and felt in the list! haha but T_T it's not as easy as I saw from the internet... T_T Omg... So Li Cheang ar, appreciate it ar haha!!*

* * * * * * * * * *

Yesterday, I've finally finished up my new year cookies that I bought at Cheras Pasar Malam on the other day. I bought 500g, that cost me RM12.50.
Erm not bad actually. I like the cherry on the top of the cookies T_T

*Nah, a lot of small pieces stick on the cookies =.= so it's looks so ugly wahhaahaa*

By the way, after today, a lot of my friends going back to hometown, T_T again I'm the last one to go back once again sien...

Li Cheang is going back Segamat to day.

Ray, Meng and Sam are going back tomorrow.

Yih Chaw is the only one who is not going back for Chinese New Year because he is going to have final exam on 5th of February.

T_T I'm going back on 31st. Actually is not going back, is going Singapore to find my sister.

Although my housemate going back on 31st as well but still T_T her flight is 9am!!! AHhhh!!! T_T

In the afternoon I'm going to meet my sister in KL. Haha!!

She asked me to meet her with brother.

But I have refused her because I said after two days I also going to meet her in Singapore what.

She said she going to pay for my shopping haha!!

But I don't feel of buying new year clothes because I'm not going to visit any houses =.=|||

Still in the end I still going to join them because she said :"sian you"

T_T Then XD Cincai lah haha!!

p/s: T_T I don't know what else I can bring to Singapore T____________T My luggage is sooooo empty =.=

A Small Pre-CNY Gathering

2011-01-28T19:30:00.001+08:00

Two days ago that is wednesday.
We were having Pre-CNY Gathering at Sunway Pyramid.
And again actually I doesn't wanted to go, but I have plenty of stuff need to buy!!! No choice T_T
In the end I spent RM77 on grocery T_______T mostly are toiletries!!
What to do, if I didn't restock all the stuff, I no need to wash the toilet, wash the clothes T_T...

Ok back to the main topic haha!!
I just realize that quite a lot people having Pre-CNY Gathering!! And I actually didn't know about it!!
Mostly are having big meal in a restaurant. They ordered a lot of CNY normal cuisine. Because it's Chinese New Year what.
But for us, wow wow wow =.=||| it's doesn't seem like others.
We just having "Pan Mee" as our lunch at Golden Egg Noodle in Puchong =.=|||

*It's sooooo yellow!!!! =.= I don't think is healhty. But not bad lah for the taste. Of course, I chose recommended haha*

After that is Karaoke session at Red Box!!

But I didn't join them due to again, same reason as previously Haha!!!

There is another reason as well, I need to purchase my grocery and waiting for Xing Yao and Mindy so that I can rightaway put in their car unfortunately they will be late.

So in the end I have to place my stuff in Yao Hong's car first.

And it's very lucky for me not to join the Karaoke session too!!

Because it's only gave them 3 hours!! Wa liao!! So little!!!

And Shiew Pei went and complained about it finally Red Box gave them one more hour to sing.

Beside that, there is more than 10 persons singing inside =.=||| OMG =.= a lot... plus too little of time...

While waiting for others, I've done my "Shopping" early so I went to One Apple (again) to have my tea time haha!!

This time I have chose two different type of muffin that I haven't ate before.

Still, I prefered the mocha T_T

*OMG inside is lemon, =.= a bit sour haha! but ok lah i like the skin very nice haha.. is put kuachi i think*

*Chocolate Muffin*

This is the chocolate muffin that Li Cheang bought last week while shopping with me. OMG INSIDE IS SOO CHOCOLATE!!!! I ALMOST CAN'T FINISHED IT T_T... It's nice for those who loved chocolate but not me =.=||| and it's quite sweet T_T but another muffin with chocolate stuffing nicer than this because it's not too sweet haha!!

Talking about this One Apple, that day while waiting for the cashier to deal with another customer, she got a 50% voucher, but she said she won't have time to come back here.

So she insisted to give me the voucher!!

Wow!! I felt so shocked!!! After she went off, AHHHH CHEH!! The cashier just kept back the voucher!!! Cit!!!!! In the end I didn't get any voucher.
Sien you know!! =.= he has a bad customer service!! =.= it's ok lah not that expensive, just RM7 only if he give me 50% voucher then it will turned into buy 1 free 1. Haha!!

And I believe there is term and condition. So nevermind lah, =.=|||

Hehe while eating the chocolate muffin I found this!

*Love shape of the chocolate haha! cute!!*

It's too early for dinner yet so we went to BaskinRobin to have a break!

I was too full due to the two muffin so I didn't spent on the ice-cream.

*Mindy was damn happy because she got a free Banana Boat ice-cream from Yao Hong haha!! (as he had promised)*

*I thought banana boat looked very special in the end like this only, actually felt a little bit disappointed haha!*

There is two choices for our dinner, Ninja Joe and Subway!

In the end Ninja Joe vote is more than Subway.

So we were going to have Ninja Joe Burger as dinner!

It's small but XD I never tried it before what.

Unfortunately Karen, that is Jay's new girlfriend, she is a vegetarian T_T

there is no vegetarian food in Ninja Joe.... I don't want to see just sitting there by looking at us finished all the burger.

So I suggested Subway because Subway has vegetarian sandwiches.

T_T in the end they spent around 20++ for two sandwiches =.= and seem like Jay does not happy about it haha!!

So again, Subway. It's ok.

Message: YEO LI CHEANG! NEXT TIME WE TRY NINJA JOES YA!!! HAHA!!!

*Subway Melt - Turkey Breast, Turkey Ham & Breakfast Stripe

Want to try on Subway Club next time haha!*

It's so surprise that Subway sandwich doesn't make me full enough!! OMG am I a monster?!!
=.= I still remembered the 1st time I ate Subway was with my brother.
I ordered Veggie Delite, that is no meat!
I doesn't want my brother to spend so much on the food for me so I chose the cheapest one.
But now =.= XD I felt regretted wahaha!!
Because I just fall in love with the ham and olive haha!!

Next, our last station in Sunway Pyramid, "The Tourist"!
Anyone who loved to watch movie should know what is it haha!
OMG T_T Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie!! I just loved the movie acted by both of them.
Yeah I know there is not much people like Angelina Jolie.
But I don't care! I just care about how she acted in the movie muahaha!!

*11 persons watching the movie! =.= someone still owe me money!! Nah this is not the longest ticket I ever got haha!*

Supper? Just went to "Everyday" food court at Puchong there.

Not in the mood for having food so ordered yong dao fu only.

Plain day huh?

At least I get what I want haha!!

Pinky Birthday Boy! ♪♪ Singing Birthday Song ♪♪

2011-01-27T21:07:00.003+08:00

Date: 24.01.2010

Day: Monday

Event: Sek Meng's 21st Birthday

Location: Little Pantry, IOI Mall, Puchong

Few days ago it happened to be Meng's 21st birthday! (Put blue color XD give him not-too-girlish a bit haha)
Actually I doesn't planned to go because of some chaos that I have created with one.
In the end I made up my mind for joining others for the celebration.
At first I have planned to buy some grocery and some stuff for my DIY present.
In the end I end up buying nothing due to insufficient time.

Anyway, although I end up "a little" quiet during the whole celebration but I quite enjoy the food and the celebration haha.
Because it's my 1st time to eat at Little Pantry.
For me the food is quite expensive but they said the price is actually affordable compared to The Garden and Full House.
The decoration is quite similar to The Garden and Full House.
What makes it different is because of the color of the restaurant. It's super duper PINK! haha!!
Even the waitress also wearing pinky maid attire haha!
For some of guys, they doesn't feel quite comfortable about it because of it's pinkiness wahahaha!!
For me, I don't care so much about it as long as the environment is comfortable and relaxing and of course, with nice food haha..

*Entrance*

I wouldn't post up the picture about the restaurant's decoration because it's too many people posting about it especially in facebook.
Moreover, I saw there is a blog already posted up about this restaurant. Just click here for the restaurant decoration.
And the one of the plates of foods that we had ordered after we saw from this blog. And it's recommended because it's very nice and affordable.
There is another food, Nasi Lemak but I didn't took the picture about it. I also heard that it not bad as well just that in this kind of restaurant I still preferred to order western food =.=|||
I don't know about the food name so I only will post up the photos. Sorry about that.
Noted: There won't be any drinks pictures as well due to nothing special about it. And what I posted up doesn't mean it's nice. Just want to share the food.

*Scallop, Cold dishes (I still prefer sushi's scallop)*

*Grilled Fish. It's other name in the menu. Guess yourselve XD (Not bad!)*

*Grilled Steak (Ask Xing Yao about the taste hehe)*

*Fried Kuey Diao (Jia Hua said "It's not nice at all!!")*

*The sauce is nice haha. But for those who choose this said that it easily to get bored because of the cream*

*Ahh my lamb chop. Very nice!! and T_T most expensive among all friends.......*

*Koori's Kids meal haha! and will get bored too =.=|||*

*Chicken Breast? Ah Meng ordered for it. Didn't get to taste it*

*Dessert belong to Koori. Erm I don't like the texture of the brown flour thingy, but the ice cream taste great haha!*

They bought the cake from TK Bread & Tart cake shop that located in Puchong too, just opposite IOI Mall.
Although it has a lot of fruits and cream. But I still love it! Haha!!
For some people they don't really like it due to too much cream on it.

*A lot of fruits right!!!! and below the fruits is all cream!!!haha!!*

Total for the foods, RM380++ T_______________T OMG.......................
It's ok T_T because we have more than 10 person.

They went to Meng's house to have champaign after having dinner.
I didn't join them because of the same reason also. (Reason I almost missed the celebration)
Another is omg I'm so damn tired.
=.= May be due to my age? But I'm just 22 years old!!! T_T

Anyway, Happy 21st Birthday for Sek Meng once again!

*Sweet Sweet Couple haha!*

A Window Shopping Turned Out to be A Shopping Day!

2011-01-25T18:47:00.005+08:00

Last Saturday I have girl outing with Li Cheang. Finally! After a long time we finally get to hang out XD
Actually I just wanted to have a normal window shopping in the end I turned out to buy one bag and one pair of socks! And one of the pairs is FREE!!! Because Li Cheang has the voucher XD Thanks a lot!! Muaks!!
Li Cheang bought quite a lot of stuff and she got her jeans skirt too! Haha! And she bought her two cute little rabbit too!! and she felt damn happy but I didnt manage to take the pictures.

I tried out a lot of dresses too T_T and I love it very much!!! Unfortunately it's too expensive!!! =.=|||
About the bag I've got, OMG damn cheap and light and soft!! I'm lucky not to buy the two previous bag I've seen. Both more than RM50 and not as light as the one I bought.
Nah it doesn't look like what I saw in Pasar Malam on the other day. The color is different as well. But still, XD it's nice! haha! and the design actually quite popular currently. =.=|||

This post actually similar with what Li Cheang has blogged out. But still I will post this post as something to remember.

Notice: I didn't get to edit the photos. So it is dark and pale. Sorry about that.

Here's the story begin:

* * *

*We're having Subway as our brunch.*

*Li Cheang's*

*and Mine. It's Chicken Terriyaki and I preferred ham. Surprisingly, this time it doesn't make me super full!!*

*A free Mocha Muffin from One Apple's Worker and trust me. It's really taste Great!!*

*And as a return, we bought 4 muffins to taste. Wow non-of-it taste bad! Suggested Muffin shop XD*

*Small tour in Sunway and Li Cheang said Midvalley's decor is much more nicer than here. (Thanks to Li Cheang help me to took such a nice pictures! T_T sorry I didnt get better picture for you T_T not good in taking these kind of pictures)We also bought an ice cream from New Zealand Natural Ice Cream*

*Sour and Spicy soup*

*Have Formosa as our dinner. XD Whenever I go to Sunway, if i remember I ALWAYS recommended this shop! Because it's economy meal, nice to eat, quite full as well. Until now I haven't get bored with the food XD*

*Again, =.=||| why we always met Mr. C while having our meal?? =.= Sien...*

* * *

Actually I saw two nice sandals. But, nah, one of it is too expensive for the price. Is like doesn't worth for the design but it's really comfortable.

Another one, feel like it might hurt my leg after a while, although it is cheap but still I need to be careful in choosing and buying. Sometimes the things is cheap but it doesn't comfortable so it doesn't worth to buy it.

I wanted to buy a new scarf, we found very cheap and pretty scarf but again, it doesn't feel comfortable so doesn't worth it.

I might missed some of the stuff I liked, still I won't feel bad about it because like doesn't mean worth+comfy. Instead, the more I missed, the more nearer for me to get something that really suitable for me ;)

p/s: T_T I doesn't spend much on this day, but I still broke T_T luckily I no need to get Chinese New Year clothes. Here makes me saved a lot haha!! And I forgot to buy my grocery T_T I've ran out of detergen and now I can't wash clothes.

p/p/s: Yeah XD started to fall in love with Sunway XD unfortunately it's hard to get there by public transport.

未婚生子

2011-01-18T12:00:00.003+08:00

Since I was around 19 years old, there were few of my friends got married.

Of course, almost all I think is because they got pregnant!

Last year, one of my close friend, got married to a ruin guy.

He used to beat her. Even when she asked for divorce he still wanted to ruin her image in hometown.

I never like that guy from the beginning. She got back with him is because of she has his baby.

She can just raise up the kid without that guy!

But she still have family burden to carry. She has no choice to continue the marriage.

For Chinese friends, she is the most closest friend with us among all.

Nah, not even invite us.

This year, this few days, there is two friends going to get married.

The A girl she said they had planned to get married may be since last one or two years.

But I got another news is actually she got pregnant. =.=|||

B girl also is because pregnant only will get married, on sunday.

This girl is younger than me around one or two years =.=|||

Why can't they buy condom? =.=||| or just control the tempting on doing those thing =.=|||

You want to play then play, don't pull the baby together with you.

My friend told me may be is because small places.

Any action also will became their "news" hoho!!

That's why they don't dare to buy hoho!!

But 未婚生子 already became a very popular act in my hometown.

Funny. A small town only can have this kind of thing happened what. Haha!!

But T_T why none of them invite me T_______________________T

until now a lot of friends married but T_T I never received any invitation card...

wah sad!!

But, XD actually I'm not that close with them.

There is no reason for them to invite me =.=|||

T_T I wanted to wear pretty pretty...

=.=||| got money then can wear pretty pretty lo... cacat...

Old and Bad Habit

2011-01-17T18:42:00.001+08:00

I just realize that, once something happened, I don't feel like maintain my current image. I would love to change my style especially hair. Now I know I used to have friends loved to cut her hair whenever she has bad mood. It felt like, you will hate the current self, so you would like to change to another faces to get rid the one you hate.

I have a very bad habit and temper. I never treat my friends very good. Especially when I don't feel happy about that person or jealous toward that person, what I said about them is straightly shoot into their heart. It's a very hurt feelings words. And I know that, if it's happened to me I sure very hurt and very sad and very angry toward that person. What to do, it's my way to hide my jealousy and uneasy feelings toward a person. I know, it's a very very freaking bad thing. Because low EQ of me, it only will kill me in the future. I know it long time ago. It just very hard to get rid of it unless really experience something big, something that can change me. But I still feel that, they keep want me to change myself but why don't they change first? It has too many question in my mind that I don't want to give up. And I really hate others mention what I really am. Such as "You are like this that", "You can't like this that", "You always like this that", "You never change like this that" and so on. Or tell me something that I already knew for what should I do. I do hate it a lot!

Still sometimes, not because I jealous or not happy about that person only say about that person. Sometimes is because the surrounding. I saw others also do so, so I have a thought of "eh why don't I join?"? Unfortunately, I never used my brain to think before say out what should or shouldn't say. I do not have any intention to say something harsh. But when think back, it's really very bad. But for me I'm just normal joking but the joke is too over already. Actually it makes me thought of what happened to me in my past 10 years. This is one of the things I never changed. Time to time, I already get used to these thing. Still, I will care. Care about everything, and still I'm creating the chaos any places. In hometown, Malacca, Cyberjaya, There is none of the places I never stop a chaos. I need miracle!! Rawr!!

I must learn how to hide the feelings. I must learn how to tolerate. I don't want always being understand what am I. It's really irritating.

A lot of people telling me that just be myself. But hello? Who am I? I don't even know how am I going to be myself? If I really be myself, I only will push everyone away from me, don't ever try to get near of me (even I don't, I believe majority also will automatically build a big gap with me).

=.= that's why T_T I always said, don't be so active T_T shut the F*** up =.= don't be so friendly! Just always be cool =.=||| what to do, the environment I grown up is different, it's hard for me not to be actively live.

The journey is difficult... But I think someday, it will turn better.

Cupp-CuppCake Time!

2011-01-15T19:06:00.000+08:00

Haha! Finally I get to eat cupcakes! *Weeeeeeee!!* I've been craving for cupcake for an ages!!!

But then, after having it... I realized that, T_T I don't like it at all!!! Because it is sweeter than I expected. T_T... Haix... After having the bites of the flowers, I don't think I am going to eat the little fishy. Luckily it's free!! wahaha!! So it's not wasting my money to buy such a sweet dessert =.=||| Sam got it from one of his company's event, for FREEEEEEEE!! HOHO!! But still I'm impressed by the cupcakes design, very nice :)

* * * * * * * * * * * * *

Yesterday I went for a company interview. And it considered as my 2nd face to face interviewed so far. 1st one was consider as my nightmare, graphic designer position. Nah, he rejected me I also don't mind about it just it make me scared. For the phone interviewed, although it does not more than 5 times (I think) but I still can't recall how many phone interviewed I've been received. After I got home yesterday afternoon, another phone interview called me. It's helpdesk job from DXXX. OMG it is so chinese! It is soooo EQ question! and it's really hard for me to answer about it. Haix... but it's ok, at least now I understand, even helpdesk job is a level 1 job, and previously I totally reject these kind of job because I really HATE IT! But now I have no choice and I realize it actually helped us in other way although it just received call =.=||| but still! doesn't mean it suitable for me also. T_T because it really need a very high EQ person only can accept these kind of job. And me? Nah, just 順其自然 lah... what to do, I have not much skill also. The only skill that I proud of myself is I can type very fast haha!!

Beside that, after the 2nd interview, it actually make me understand why I've been arranged to work in that stupid company during my internship. Although it really didn't learn much thing there, but at least I have improved my typing skill and also I can worked shift job. Just, I can worked long hours but I haven't try night shift yet =X Now I re-understand again what my brother had said to me before,

"what you learned now may be you think it is really useless for you, but it might help you in your future, you'll never know"

For now, I just hope I can get a job at least to cover up my finance and at least can learn something that I never learned before, see the things I never seen before, meet the stuff I never met before.

雨過天晴

2011-01-12T13:10:00.001+08:00

有時候，

事情終會在你不希望發生而發生了。。。

走頭已無路，

只能往下邊挖邊尋找。。。

提醒自己

先苦后甜，是生活中必要的路程。。。

告訴自己

雨過，應該就會天晴吧？

不想長大

2011-01-11T19:15:00.001+08:00

小時候，多麽希望自己快高長大

不用再受家裏的控制

長大后，多麽希望自己永遠活在童年裏

無憂無慮的過生活

什麽事情，大人都會說：

“你還小，不懂事”

“小孩子，不用懂那麽多”

時間，是不等人

你不想長大

哭著哀求，請求，跪求

它，都不會有一絲的同情心

停下秒針成全你

現實是殘酷的。。。

如果還有如果

2011-01-11T12:10:00.001+08:00

如果，當初

沒有那愚蠢放棄唱歌，跳舞的想法

如果，當初

有想過上大學，拿藝術這門課

如果，當初。。。如果，當初。。。

如果知道有“如果”

或許，我就不會是現在的我

或許，我就不會像現在那麽的沒方向，

那麽的失去自我

違背，讓我徹徹底底的毀了我自己。。。

Violet Brighten My Day :)

2011-01-08T23:20:00.003+08:00

Actually this morning I wanted to update my blog because I have a very special dream!!! OMG it is really unexpected WAHAHAHA!!! The reason why I didn't update about it is because in a sudden Sam wanted to eat outside =.= so he called Yao Hong to go for lunch =.=|||

We went to puchong to eat bat kut teh (and I haven't fully recovered from my sore throat!!!) Haix... I just don't know why I felt the rice taste.... XD sweet!!! haha... so in the end I finished those rice although at first I don't have the feeling having rice for a meal due to my sore throat. We went to Sunway Pyramid after finish our lunch. =.=|||

Ok, cut the happening day and back to my morning dream. XD Unexpectedly I dreamed about I MET VIOLET!! OMG!!! SO SURPRISE AND I SO HAPPY ABOUT IT!! AND I MANAGED TO RECOGNIZE HER IS BECAUSE OF HER CUTE BLONDY+PINKY HAIR!!!! XD XD SHE IS DAMN FRIENDLY!! OMG!! HAHA!!

I loved her blog sooooo much because her blog always very inspiring me!! I get to know about her blog is because of another famous blogger, XiaXue. About a post they met up together with Super Kawaii Mama. Super Kawaii Mama is more on fashion but T_T unfortunately it doesn't really suit my taste. On the other hand, Violet's blog is more about her life, tutorials, cooking, DIY, and more and more. Just like yesterday, I have a banquet to attend. And I didn't have a suitable accessories for the dress!!! Suddenly Violet's blog reminded me about the post that she have updated recently, about the cute felt daisy headband!!(Click to see the tutorial) Unfortunately I knew I don't have any white felt, even a single felt I also don't have. So I called Li Cheang to help me to go to IOI Mall to purchase the white felt. Although it was quite rushing, but I still managed to get it done.

The reason I will thought of making daisy is because my dress has flowers, and it is because T_T the only flower that have easier tutorial =.=||| ! So I'm going to do one daisy ribbon bracelet. Actually I'm thinking doing exactly like what Violet did, because I think green ribbon is more suitable for my dress, but then once again, unfortunately I don't have green ribbon so in the end I use pink ribbon. Beside that I made another daisy ring for the accessories too. But not nice, haix... T_T what to do, I don't have much tools also...

After done that two, I did another porch for my digital camera because I don't have suitable bag to bring to the banquet to match the dress. So surprisingly I done the porch in few minutes only wahaha!! with a rabbit that I didn't thought of to put on it haha.. Actually I just testing about the rabbit, but in the end it became the porch surface design (I'm sorry I didn't know what it called). It's ok, picture will help me to explain about it. ;)

*Wasn't so bad kua >.< yeah I know the dress look a bit long for me =.=|||*

*The white felt I have done! =.=||| one of the flower start to dropped before I reached there T_T fail*

*The porch I did, and the rabbit almost fell because the thread I didnt tie properly =.=*

Thanks to Violet's tutorials for inspired me or else I really don't know what to do...

That's all for today. XD I am so happy!!! Haha Violet make my day different ;)

End of Year 2010

2011-01-03T19:19:00.005+08:00

Hey yo! I'm back once again!
Yeah yeah I know, I am suppose to update my blog ON 31st of December 2010. But! I'm very lazy to edit all the photos!!
Consequences, now I'm editing once for all omg!! so tired!! and some are so ugly!! Haix.. nevermind lah, that's not the main point, I just wanted to share what had happened to me in year 2010.

Actually on November and December I had planned to update the blog but... wahahaha!! those photo haven't been edited and I have no idea what to blog. I saw a lot of famous bloggers were doing some summary for the year of 2010 . So now, here am I, outdated and start updating the blog, paiseh ar!

It's just a blink and 2010 has passed!! OMG I still cannot accept the truth. =.=|||
but, what to do, time never waited for us right? So no matter how we still need to get on the life T_T although it's terrible!!!

Ok cut the words short. In year 2010, I have LOTS of 1ST TIME!! OMG!!
I won't ~~REPOST~~ all the photos from January to August because if anyone have updated my blog, will knew that I had already posted up pictures for that few months. So I will use words to elaborate my so call "Story" of the year until the month that I haven't shared or told. Not all I will shown, but still, =.= it's still a lot...
By the way, I think, again, it's my very 1ST TIME to do these kind of post also. Hopefully it won't felt bored.

Let the party begin!

JANUARY

- 1ST TIME:
1. DIY card for my 12th CNYE OC! (and sorry T_T it's ugly)
2. having charity manicure with Mindy at Misri Plaza MMU Cyber.
3. carry such a BIG POO POO DOLL walked around in the airport and became attention to all the passenger =.=||| quite embarrassing and FUN WAHAHAHA!! and 1ST TIME having two DEVIL on my bag. (refer to my JANUARY 2010 post)
4. dye hair + highlight together (ok highlight not the 1st time but together is 1ST TIME!)! 1ST TIME went to rebond hair on my own! and nah, you guys wouldn't wish to see my terrible face that full of pimples. When I looked back, it scared me too. Now I understand why they kept on complaining my face. T_T because it's really scary.
- Have new hobby!! - MAHJONG! IT'S FUN!

FEBRUARY

- 1ST TIME celebrating Chinese New Year in Singapore WITH my WHOLE FAMILY and it's my 1ST TIME not celebrating in own hometown! also after around more than 10 years? Finally, our 1ST out of country FAMILY PHOTOS!!
- *Happy* finally my dad can go traveling after around, 22 years? or 30 years? for not travelling? *Glad that he was happy*
- 1ST TIME attended CYNE Banquet Night without need to WORK!!
- 1ST TIME went "Small genting" (Look Out Point) to celebrate JiaYi's Birthday!
- get a very 1ST TIME present from Sam HAHA! (and sorry =.= I broked it and he wouldn't buy me any bracelet anymore T_T)
- 1ST TIME having meal at STEAKOUT.
- 1ST TIME playing archery, with Sam and Yao Hung (=.=* and I don't like it)
- 1ST TIME having meal at Jack's place with Melissa! (with her is 1st time hehe)
- 1ST TIME made present for Li Cheang (T_T and it's a fail DIY)

MARCH

- 1ST TIME having my own photoshooting with the kitten and the mother just in MMU Hostel HAHA! and I'M LOVING IT!
- 1ST TIME having photoshooting with Seaw Wei also! but T_T she was using DSLR Nikon D3000 and I were just using my lousy point-and-shoot SONY Camera =.=|||
- 1ST TIME went to BREEKS cafe in IOI Mall with Shiew Pei's gang! (on that day we were really FREE omg! whole day activities =.= dim sum + padi + breeks + pool)

APRIL

1ST TIME:
1. taking photos on the model (photography club having some event)
2. having shabu-shabu with S-Gang and others
3. FYP Presentation, and it's suck.
4. taking photos with lecturer (and it's my favourite lecturer, Mr. Ng Kok Why!)
5. taking photos with Wai Kit, Jing Liang, Shawl Yee, Mex and Yin Fei!! T_T I'm glad that going through my final semester with you guys T_T and friends with you guys!

MAY

- 1ST TIME went to "The Library" (unfortunately not drinking liquor on the bar, sien)
- 1ST TIME celebrating Xue Hui's birthday! And it's all FIT! except for Katherine haha.. She is special guest.
- Fareware party for FIT Students!
- 1ST TIME eating pure soya ice-cream from QBean in IOI Mall and it's very full and nice T_T
- Finally reunion with Malacca gang!! So happy!! T_T it's been ages since the last time we hang out together T_T
- 1ST TIME eating at KISSATEN Sushi Restaurant at IOI Boulevard , and for my opinion, EWW! Not nice!!
- Got surprise news (and it's private =.= 知人知面不知心)
- 1ST TIME took picture with Ah Min! - Sam's ex-housemate. Damn T_T she is really pretty!! Jealous on her so much! XD pretty, smart, tall, fair, fashionably, friendly, kind, gorgeous, and more and more!
- Graduation Trip, 1ST TIME with S-Gang + V to Singapore! Can say is our 1ST TIME travel like this together!! Very enjoy! and a lot of 1ST TIME there =.=, Universal studio, Marina Bay, The two casino, on boat visiting few places, Clark Key, and bla bla bla.. =.=
- 1ST TIME finally real moved out from Hostel! But T_T I actually missed hostel so much, roommate with Melissa and Yuan Shing.Life in Hostel T_T
- 1ST TIME need to bother paying renter, bills for every months! (ahh! hate it...)

JUNE

- 1ST TIME went to Cameron, another graduation trip, Cyber + Malacca (T_T not all)
- Having sushi buffet for Sam & Yao Hung's birthday. Sushi Buffet was not my 1st time but the Restaurant is my 1ST TIME haha!!

*I know it looks silly but somehow, I just loved this pic haha!*

JULY

- 1ST TIME climbed Broga Hill!! Good experience but, for 2nd time? Nah, it's not my cup of tea T_T
- 1ST TIME went to Banting, 1ST TIME eat Hak Yi Gai, 1ST TIME went to Gold Coast Beach, 1ST TIME having a table of seafoods! All for celebrating Ray's Birthday! Ray, you're lucky XD
- 1ST TIME celebrating Falix's birthday! and again, shabu-shabu. Easier MUAHAHAHA!!

AUGUST

- 1ST TIME Convocation! Of course is 1st time =.=
- 1ST TIME get real flower bouquets! It's from my siblings! A Big one! Another cute Sunflower from Shiew Pei Gang, and a teddy bear from Sam's sister/mother I forgot XD, and a congratulation card from Mindy! (Picture at the bottom of the post) and also met a lot of old friends too T_T.
- 1ST TIME went to i-City, which is the place I wanted to go for quite a long time! Thanks to Shiew Pei them haha!!
- 1ST TIME went back hometown for one and a half month! and on that time, my dad thought I only went back for 2 weeks instead of went back during Raya which disappointed him. After he knew I went back for almost two months and already planned straight until Raya because need to help him in the shop, thing changed! Just felt stupid booked the flight on 31st September =.=||| (I have small belle during that period hoho! but just hate the people there always asked me to eat more, chubby like my sis nicer. Hello! I thin ma thin lah! What's the problem for being thin? You try to diet until as thin as me lah! ask me turned fat, ISH...)
- Having tasty chicken with Nun Chia and Chai Ying!

SEPTEMBER

(All happened in my hometown!)
- 1ST TIME having BBQ with Nun Chia, her family, Chai Ying! in hometown!
- 1ST TIME went to Chai Ming's house pat at night =.=|||
- Haha! get to know a rumour from Shou Long that someone likes me for a long time! wahaha! it's surprise me!
- Since small I've been watching temple parade in my hometown, but, this is my 1ST TIME taking photos of the parade =.=, that time I felt super "sam ba lao" and like never seen before haha! I felt that, since I have camera, why not taking picture? But I just hate the noise of the photo =.= because it's night time.
- 1ST TIME played on Photoshop CS! And my very 1ST TIME co-operate with my sister for designing customer Food Menu! *Happy* another thing happy is, I managed to help my dad at least in business! Even one thing I also don't mind! *Happy*
- 1ST TIME bring mooncake for friends in West Peninsular!
- *Happy* got mooncake from Nun Chia, having nail polished by her! All were 1ST TIME!

*Isn't it cute!?*

OCTOBER

- 1ST TIME eat Kindori ice-cream
- Maraton in 3 days:
Day 1. Sunway Pyramid having meeting with promoter's supervisor, IOI Mall Karaoke.
Day 2. went to Malacca with Li Cheang and David (After a long time didn't went back to Malacca.), it's because Li Cheang had interviewed with a company, bought anglet, bought new slippers, 1ST TIME having fried potato on stick!
Day 3. One Utama, movie with Su, YH, Koori, Meng, Sam after long time didnt met Su, went to One Utama "flower garden", 1ST TIME went 甜品哥哥 ate 糖水(dessert),.
-1ST TIME became a promoter while I'm jobless (just for 3 days due to no transport), 1ST TIME make up myself! AND IT'S UGLY! but it's quite fun! Just T_T my leg is pain for standing whole day! (sometimes borrowed chair from the neighbor's booth haha!) Seen a lot of things. Having yummy brand berry and milk! haha!
- Got cute belated present from Melissa! It's PIG!! CUZ I HEART SHOW LUO!!! HAHA!!

*The 3 Days*

*Ignore my head for 45 degree rotated*

*Can't really see I've make up because I only put foundation(and other kind of foundation) and lip stick + lip bump, can't really see but if you saw my real person, it can be seen because XD it has covered my pimple scar muahaha!!*

NOVEMBER

- 1ST TIME had interviewed, Graphic Designer position, a small company, REJECTED! I don't want also (Nightmare!)
- 1ST TIME went to Malacca just for FOOD! (1ST TIME eat najeje) OMG IM SORRY ABOUT THE PHOTO IS SO SMALL AND UGLY!! That time trying to make it small so that it wouldn't make my netbook lag, but I regretted =.=||| and I'm SO FREAKING LAZY to redo! so, just ignored (inspired by the Poster "Love, Actually")

- 1ST TIME keep having girl's outing with Li Cheang haha!

*Went Sushi in IOI Mall, and we got accompany by Mr. C! =.= it kept on running here and there. I didn't know whether it's clean or not if like this. =.= I don't dare to write the name, so indirectly write lah! haha! (Because don't think it's good for the restaurant, later they google search found my blog writting this OMG!)*

- With Li Cheang accompany YH went and bought Jay Chow's concert ticket(1ST TIME). 1ST TIME went SOGO Mall.(The mall stuff is consider all branded! but quite small =.= and, don't really like it =.=)

- 1ST TIME trying out gradient style nail polish (inspired by Jen, one of the famous blogger.), pokka dot nail polish style (inspired by Violet famous blogger.)

*I know it's ugly!! so ignored about it. I'm just trying around =.=*

DECEMBER

- 1ST TIME:
1. Phone inverviewed. Again Rejected! =.=||| seem like those kind of job I'm not suitable.
2. Register Fitness First! (But I cancelled already. T_T not worth for the bus fees and every month fees.)
3. went to Midvalley by my own!
4. Motor Shows at PWTC
5. Get 湯圓(glutenous rice) from Mindy! (THANKS A LOT!!)
6. 老媽子(Lao Ma Zi) steamboat, SK during Christmas Eve!
7. 錦選香港特極點心(Jin Xuan Hong Kong), Puchong during Christmas!
8. BBQ at Falix's House! With Malacca + Cyber! But not all T_T
9. Get sweet present from Mindy!!
10. Hang out with Huiee and 1ST TIME went to Warehouse too!! THE STUFF IS GOD DAMN CHEAP!!
11. Mindy hang out with Yh and I WITHOUT Xing Yao around!! haha!!

Ya ya I know T_T it's very MESSY right!!! A lot of redundant right!!!! Sorry about that T_T... Who ask me anything also wanted to post. I will improve myself in 2011 to be better in blogging T_T I'm not expert some more seldom blogging T_T

YA YA!! IT'S A LOT OF FIRST TIME RIGHT!!! I TOLD YA'!! OMG =.=||| felt like I'm the frog who under the well. Nevermind, after this those wouldn't be the 1st time already haha!!

Anyway, hope the blog won't make you angry T_T because it's quite confusing!! T_T what to do, I'm not good in arranging! Still improving!!

Last but not least, after february, finally I DARE to trim my hair!! and thanks to Mindy for introduce and acocmpany me to Mirror Sense hair saloon!! The hair stylist so leng chai T_______T About my hair, may be due to my middle hair not straight, so started to curl already T_T, nah not the hair stylist problem XD he is FRIENDLY!! at least he cut a fringe I felt satisfied HAHA!!

*This time no straight bang, but a slide fringe. Can't really see right!! Sorry about that, it's angle problem haha!!*

So that's all for my 2010 year. Most of it I've mentioned. Some toooooo ennie meenie minnie things! So I didn't blogged it out.

And Say HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII to year 2011!!! (actually T_T I'm sad for the time flew so fast!!! And I am still jobless!!!!)

p/s: On 1st of January 2011, I'M HAVING SORE THROAT UNTIL NOW!!!! ARGH!! My throat is having INFLAMMATION!! It's affecting my ears, nose and I'm having FEVER TOO!! due to BBQ + a bit liquor + drank not enough water T____T hopefully will recover VERY SOON! Because I'm going to attend 14th CNYE Banquet Night on this FRIDAY! =.= wish me recover soon!!

*** End of 2010***

我是誰我是誰我是誰

2010-12-12T16:17:00.004+08:00

I've been jobless, for quite a few months. Due to I too choosy about the job.

Yeah I know it's my 1st job i shouldn't be so choosy but i just did...

A lot people saying there is training, after a long time you will used to it and whatsoever.

But I just won't listen about it.

Some people hear what I said but seem like they never listened to what I said. I have my own thinking, I won't accept any other advices that I think it's not in my head.

Recently, I super duper hate people mention about job thingy. It's my problem, doesn't need you to be sound like professional to give me so much advices or consultancy. I doesn't need it because i have heard enough and I will ask myself when I wanted to know or when I'm interested.

But, some, just wouldn't understand the word coming from my mouth, 1st question they will ask "Working already? / Found job already?", my answer of course is "No, not yet. / No, don't have". Their question, "Huh? How come?". After few sentence and there! start to talk about it already. Not to mention friends, the most I fear, is my family. Whenever they find me or talk about work, I always felt stress! is like super duper stress! start sweating, start worrying I will say something wrong. Most of it will be about job, further study, taking another extra courses, or restart everything on what i interested.I'm not trying to blame my family, I knew they just worried about it, they were just trying to help me out, but, I don't want to be the useless in the family even after I've graduated (although the fact that I'm still a useless in the end...). I just have my own attitude to solve things or escape from problems.

I did mentioned before. Currently in my mind, I just want to earn more money. It's just money money money in my head! I don't like keep withdrawing money without any input in my account. And now I am 22 years old! next year will be 23! Looking at friends around me one by one get started to work, one by one every month waiting for the salary, waiting the time for SHOPPING!! (and I only can have window shopping...), when gathering, they even mentioned about their job!(of course they do! because they're sharing each other life story! There is nothing wrong about it, yeah I knew that...) When I mix in, there is a feeling that deep inside me saying "you haven't work you never knew lah bla bla lah, talk to you like talk to kids lah bla bla, you don't even know what they talking about lah bla bla, why you just butt in working people conversation har jobless people" and so much more... (All are so negative! And I just couldn't stop it...)

Is like, I felt like, I'm being neglected, being abandoned, being not grown up, being so irritating and so much more! That is what i felt.

Whenever people talk about or asking about what I want to do, what I like to do, actually, what I said, is not appeared in my mind, I always just simply say out say something so different. Because I don't wish to have another consultant. But, at the end, I'll get more nagging... I felt so sad...

I started to felt there is a distance with everyone around me.

I still remembered one time, there were people told me something like, people you mixing are kids so you act like kids also, not growing up and whatsoever lah. I don't quite remembered. Suddenly I felt I hurt deeply... Sound like, those who working, has different world with me...(May be if I started to have a job i wouldn't say this or think like this ba... )

And again... I felt so lonely... I felt I wanted to be alone, I don't like to have social communication with others...

I wanted to say, YES! I'm JOBLESS! YES! a lot ADVICE and CONSULTANT! YES! I'm CHOOSY! YES! I'm not putting my EFFORT inside!

SO WHAT! I AM WHO I AM! felt like keep wanted to change me! Why!! Because want me to have a better life! So? I have better future? or they just being nice to me! Sorry lah, I just felt so different.I don't want then I don't want, why want to sound like forcing me? (Knew I'm a stubborn person, my 自尊心 is strong... I don't like people can know what I'm thinking, because I scared, I scared I'll get another lecture... Keep thinking every second is so tired... but, that's human being...)

If want to change me, start it when I was small! Not now! Now I have my own thoughts! Now I can move myself! Actually I super duper hate people asked me, what I'm interested in. I always lied when they asked me about this kind of question, because in real life, I actually don't know what I want. I only know I want to earn money. Family keep ask me keep going on designing path. But they didn't know I actually always lost my confident in designing. I know we can't have comparison in our life or else we will be the person who suffered. Still, comparison in my heart built when I was small.(本性难移... May be I needed some experience or miracle to happen so that can removed this terrible feeling inside me...) Whenever I saw other people's art work, I always lost my self-esteem. Because in my mind, sure have, "impossible I will do until that nice" or something like "wah they are so creative! how can I compare with them?" or something like "Wow! So creative! I never thought of that!" Some people think I'm creative, I'm good in designing, but actually, it's the thing that make me lost my confident in... When I look back what I have designed before, actually I felt that it's... TERRIBLE! it's... SO CHILDISH! I HATE MY DESIGN! ...(Even my own photography skill, as photography's daughter, I don't even know about everything related to photography, I don't even have sense of photo... I HATE MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILL AS WELL!) So not that I said i quit and give up in designing is what I really meant... I only say out what I not meant it. In the end I'm being scolded... What I really meant is... I give up turning my designing into a business, instead, I maintain it as friends sharing...

Depressing recently... sorry about it... I just never knew what is the real meaning of my existence except keep giving others troublesome... Since small I never have an idea what I'm going to do with my life...(I only knew what am I going to fill my free time with those boring and wasting time things.) When I came to west peninsular, realize, a lot around secondary, they know what they want to do, they knew what they like, they knew what they good in, they knew what they interested in... May be, laziness stick with me too long, because of laziness, I lack of motivation to do the thing that I'm interested of... Plus I always have a very low self-esteem...

Who I am, and what am I doing in this world? What can I bring for this society? What can I bring for my friends? I never good in anything...

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I've fall in love with this song... It's call "Who am I Who am I Who am I"

我是誰我是誰我是誰

作詞：廷廷 (Magic Power)
作曲：廷廷 (Magic Power)
編曲：Jae Chong

我是誰你是否常常這樣問自己
我是誰總是活在別人的期望裡
我是誰是誰又擅自幫你定義了
你是誰只有不是自己才安全

為什麼你以為這個世界很美麗
為什麼你愛這個世界勝過愛自己
為什麼這個世界不給你平等待遇
為什麼到底做錯了什麼

朋友都說你太太太奇怪
在背後把你當成笑笑笑話看
每一個動作都被瞎猜
他們說你是個不能容忍的存在

你想要的很很很簡單
不過就是最普通的的的平凡
誠實做自己有時候很難
但是請你勇敢的試一次看看

無論他們又說什麼閒言閒語無法傷害我
世界上只有一個我沒人能代替的我
無論他們又做什麼小動作無法打敗我
我知道自己是最美麗的
The most beautiful

會不會上帝把你的靈魂放錯了身體
會不會是故意整你不是不小心
會不會你常常都覺得力不從心
會不會堅持要做自己太危險

憑什麼難道比較特別就是不對
憑什麼先下了註解在認識之前
憑什麼只不過想認真的活一遍
憑什麼隨便就把人定罪

我是誰這個問題困擾你多少天多少夜
我是誰誰有資格決定你怎樣才是對
我是誰我是誰我是誰
我就是我你就是你
認真做自己的人最美麗

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It's so me... But I wish I will have the positive thinking and the confident just like what he wrote in the chorus...

I'm Back!

2010-10-19T21:40:00.010+08:00

It's been AGES since the last time i update my blog WAHAHAHA!!

I will post up more photos this time compare to last time due to long time abandon my blog.
Moreover, my english become poorer compare to last time. T_T I don't like reading! And also i didnt update myself during "Holiday" period =.=|||

So, the photo will explain everything as "A picture is worth more than a thousand words (but still, not everything) Wahahaha!!

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Here is what happen to me in this half year:
1. I finally finished my Degree (YEAH!)
2. Passed my special supplementary examination-Obviously I failed one subject (Thanks to Mr. CCHO)
3. Went for traveling ( Cameron with Malacca gang and Singapore with S-gang)
4. Went back hometown for 1 and a half month ( What a great memory with Nun Chia, Chai Ming, Chai Ing, Ah Tok, Ah Liang, Hui Shinn, Shun Yang, Shou Long and whoever i hang out with in hometown haha.. Thanks to them i experience quite a few new thing in my hometown that i never had before such as nail polished by Nun Chia, BBQ, Chicken Panggang with Nun Chia and Chai Ing, Gossiping at Chai Ming's house with ah tok, liang, hung, and so many more!! )
5. I know i know im jobless now and hunting for it too, but please please stop asking me about it XD
6. While jobless, i've been watching a lot of dramas muahaha!!
7. Meanwhile, I started to learn PAINT.NET, during the time in my hometown, i learned a bit Adobe Photoshop(Thanks to my dad)
8. Financial crisis now so i can't spend too much T_T still need to save a lot of money
9. Start my DIY on my stuff!
10. Force to do chores! there is never ending laundry!! (oh ya i moved out from hostel already)
11. Drama drama drama drama drama almost everyday!
12. Cut the words 1st, let's enter the photo part 1st because I also don't know what I want to blog already wahahaha! And by the way I just finished these photo edit this afternoon. ( most of it by using Photoscape due to too many pictures already T_T and not good in PAINT.NET )

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*Chinese New Year Family Trip to Singapore*

*12th CNYE*

*JiaYi's Birthday kacau by us haha (btw, altho photo not nice, but nah jiayi, the fonts is ribbon fonts if you enlarge and see, specially for you!)*

*Kimi's Birthday*

*Xing Yao's Birthday we went to shabu-shabu just beside IOI mall and it doesn't have much choices. so that better be my last time to go there. I prefer the puchong corner shabu XD. (I can't find this photo in my hardisk, i don't remember where i placed it already, so i get this from my facebook website =.=)*

* Outing with S-Gang! Love this pic!*

It's the last day with Mex, ShawlYee, CloudyCloud(sorry forgot your real name T_T FORGIVE ME!), Jie, JingLiang, and Mr. Ng Kok Why! It's my very special favourite lecturer ever since I attended his class for the 1st time. Because T_T almost the only lecturer that I know what is he teaching about. Because he too detailed dy! Others is all games design student! only me.. animation student but I STILL HAPPY TO HANG OUT WITH THEM! HAHA!

*FYP Presentation (Of course I also got lah and it's nightmare =.=)*

*Having streambot at Serdang hehe so full~*

*Relax a while after final muahaha! (1st time go out with Gim~ It's fun!*

*Food Trip?? Doesnt look like because in the end turn up just like a gathering with Malacca Gang*

Pretty Min!!! She is sam's ex-housemate. And she is a really nice person and DAMN ADORABLE PERSON! (i can't say cute because cute=ugly but adorable, SHE IS REALLY PRETTY AND SWEET AND FAIR!!) The picture we took before she went to taiwan and i went to singapore XD we departed on the same day!! haha! Miss you, Min ♥

*Graduation Trip with S-Gang!! (others didnt join because expensive)*

*2nd one is 1st edit, then realize missing eddy wahaha.. so i re-edit another one but i still like 1st one so i post up both ohoho*

*Sushi buffet at Puchong, Sam and Eddy's birthday!*

*Malacca & Cyber Gang in Cameron for 3 days 2 nights, I love the text and the cartoon cloud. And the GREEN OF THE ENVIRONMENT! IT MAKES EVERYONE SO PRETTY!*

*Ray's Birthday special one, we went gold cost beach to play and ate seafoods, Hak Yi Kai in Banting hehe*

*Celebrated Falix's Birthday at Puchong Shabu Shabu and that time he just started to work hehe*

*1st time climb broga hill XD and =.= it felt like i have been exercise for one year =.= but it's a fun experience hehe*

*1st of August MMU Convocation! Finally can grad with them! (I went for 3 days so will see me in casual also wahahaha)*

*My Birthday! On 7th of August! We went to Caff restaurant and i-City!! the place i wanted to go for such a long time!! thanks everyone!! (Sorry for the poor photo editing T_T)*

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That's all for today, Im back in cyber for almost two weeks and I felt so lazy to bring camera out, so not taking any interesting picture yet.. XD For more information, XD follow up my facebook better WAHAHAHAHA!!

p/s: for those who not appear in the photo doesn't mean you were not in my memory. Just some of it i don't have the photo. So in the end i didn't upload a lot, only few of the memory. Still I will miss you guys also!! Especially my ex-roomie!!!

*The End*

Photo Editting by PAINT.NET + PHOTOSHOP

2010-03-25T01:29:00.004+08:00

In the afternoon I saw the kitten and his mother once again. So and Once again, I went down to take some photos again :)

While finding the kitten, I went to the back of the hostel and saw some nice flower on the ground. So I have some shooting of the flower, meanwhile, testing around with ZOOM + MACRO effect XD

Unexpected output nicely XD i so excited about it...

The first thing in my mind is i want to share! Especially with Seaw wei XD... and at night, i showed her in msn and she had photoshoped the photo! and i just realize, the actual color of the photo is really less yellow and red color... haix sad about it... Still thought that original photo will be nicer.

Anyway, the left side is the original photo that snapped by me and the right side is the photo that edited by seaw wei. After that i combine both of the images by using PAINT.NET because the only "advance" photo editor i have due to my pc not strong enough i can't used photoshop such a heavy software.

Cats Photo Shooting Day

2010-03-22T17:33:00.002+08:00

* Have been busy with examination lately *

Just now my class has been cancelled so all of us went back early after done distributed our Media Law group project. By the time i reached hostel, i saw the cat mother and her son was sleeping just beside the small bushes. In a sudden i wanted to take some picture of them :)

Actually i wanted to create an album in Facebook because i really took quite a lot, but, after i keep on looking at it.. feel like the photo doesn't works very well and not very nice. So just blogging for some macro shooting sharing. But on the Second thought, I challenge myself, posting up and sharing with everyone :)

* actually quite difficult to take the kitten pictures because =.=||| he is damn hyperactive today, is everyday actually *

Here some picture that i like the most, mostly is using macro to take because i love using macro although not all works well >.<

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Kitten's paw

Innocent Look

Macro the leafs and Cat mother as background

My hand So kacau

Took from bottom

Another attempt took from bottom.. It's very difficult because he tried to attack my camera

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Starting next week there is no break for me because T_T having presentation, FYP, assignment O.O

* sa...... *

But still, i think i will hanging around once again... and cry in the end terribly, basically that's how i screw my studies last time >.<

Miserable, Stress

2010-03-01T17:19:00.002+08:00

Woodland, Singapore

Since i was small, never care about anything what will comes to me. i only do what is in my mind at that time. never thought further about life... never thought further about what will happen in my study life. Just do what ever i can to finish up my life today. Any subject, exam coming, just study. Never ever thought further about it when entering primary school, entering secondary school... Even until enter university. When going to choose for the bachelor i want to study, i don't know what to choose. I can't choose engineering because my brother studied it, i can't take management because even my super duper damn smart sister also almost become crazy for studying it. There is only IT and CM that i can choose for. I'm not choosing for other university because i just follow my siblings. I'm a person who don't have any decision mind. Just follow whatever is there. I don't choose CM is because 1. My dad... i scared to take over the shop, everyday doing the same thing in the shop. 2. Because again, my sister and brother study in malacca then just come cyber study. I want to be like them once again. So again, i follow them. Until finish my foundation, i realize, we need to choose our major! and actually i don't even know those thing existence T_T... I'm very confuse, and again, how i choose the major... 1. Cyber again next journey, 2. see who is going, 3. the major, the only subject there wrote something about animation. I can't choose anything about programming because i don't even like it. Again. Entering degree. I don't even like xing yao, mindy, go and do research about what are they going to study for the next subject or next semester. They will know what the subject study about before they study. That's will be easier for them. But by the time i know about it, it's too late for me because i'm a last year student already. There is no way for me to turn back to my beta year already. When during gamma time, i just knew about there is something called internship program. Before internship entering my world, i cried for scared about it because i scared doing something i don't know then something about programming once again... When my internship is there, i'm glad i'm not doing anything related to programming. Then again, after that i just realize there is something called final year project. Again, i cried for it because i scared about it. I worry i don't even know how to do. Even just assignment i will worry until shaking. Just assignment... because fyp is not something you can do until half then just passed it or just ask other people to do for you or just leave it to your groupmate to do like assignment. I really worry about it. It's make me always think i want to drop all the subject for this semester then just slowly take it in the next semester. But i know i can't do it. I only can become crazy for those. Or if the time can turn back, then take fcm subject, doing the fyp, at least is something design that i like not something programming that i don't like. My fyp not even program about something like cartoon or what, it's all about program a program. Even now, supervisor i also scared to meet.

* Worry... worry... worry... *

Feel like it's end of the world... no, is more terrible than end of world................

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine's D❤y !

2010-02-12T01:54:00.003+08:00

Hostel HB3

Tiger and Cat are from the same family right? since i don't have any tiger photo so XD here one of the hostel cat picture that i took few days ago. XD she seems like very happy ahahhaa... and i had edited using PAINT.NET software. It similar to Photoshop but then just not as heavy as Photoshop cs software. :X i don't know how to use it, actually wanted to make some frame for the picture but then end up to be like that =.=||| oh well nevermind, just wanted to edit some chinese new year pictures to WISH EVERYONE . .

* HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! *

* 新年快乐 *

I'm going to Singapore starting from tomorrow until 19th of February T_T going to do nothing touch nothing for all the assignment and studies and FYP...

FYI, i'm not in the trip mood for now, but when reach there, not sure can recover my mood or not so, going to stay tune about it ohoho...

oh ya and by the way. . .

* HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY *

* 情人节快乐 *

for everyone, no matter you are available or not available, single or not single, married or not married, engage or not engage, divorce or not divorce (opps... ) XD just.... kidding hehe...

* God Bless All My Friends and Family :) *

Just one non-sense post

2010-02-10T15:48:00.004+08:00

* Genting, Cable Car *

Somehow, there's a lot of things happened around me. Actually not much things happen but just, that is what i have felt.

I had a very bad temper since i was small. I even had a very strong jealousy toward those people that who can get the things that they wish for whenever they want.

I kept on controlling those feelings a lot of times but still in the end it's end up to be more worst... I always ask that, why they can have this and that whenever they want while i can't? But when i look back, actually it's been a while, whenever the things that i want i will get it but it's after quite a long time. Such as Ipod Nano, mp3, digital camera, watches, hp and etc, those very expensive thingy. But still, from time to time, the desire in my heart getting stronger and stronger when i saw one has this and that. Nice clothings, nice hair, nice face, nice shoes, pretty things around, goes shopping whenever they want, get the things during shopping also the things they like. so nice :(

I always need to say "wow so nice" in a very uneasy heart, not always but still sometimes. My jealous non-stop envying. I tried not to keep on have that feelings but it keeps on popping, wanted to come out from my heart. It's very exhausted when every time i tried to control it.

In my whole life, the person i most envy, most jealous toward is my sister. She get whenever she wants. She has the "power" to get it, she has the money to get it, she has a nice taste to get it, she has her brain to get it, she has her beautiful heart to get it, she has a very pretty and adorable smile to get it, she has the determination heart to get it, she has.. she has..... ...

As you can see, she can get a lot of things she wanted. Looks like she is very lucky. But actually not, just like chinese phrase "天下没有白吃的午餐", actually since she was small, she put a lot of effort in everything she does. Whenever there is anything reached on her hand, she will try her 101% effort to done the thing. She has laziness, but not as serious as mind. She has an intelligent brain. She has bad temper as well, just, mine is 100% more worst than her. She is able to control all her negative side to be burst out, but me, i can't control. Actually is good for others to tell me tried to change my behavior but do they know that, actually, is a really very suffer thing to change one thing in me. That is not an easy thing to do. My determination heart is not as strong as anyone else. Who don't want to change to be a better one (unless you are a person who hope every luck keep goes on on you no matter what is your type). Change to be a better one the day also will become brighter.

Beside that, whenever who is with my sister, i will very envy because they can get what they want too. Is like her luck will spread to the person besides her. Is nice right? that's what my sis in my heart. although sometimes i get jealous toward her, envy toward her, feel unfair, but still, she is my sis. She deserved all these. No one knows her past better than my dad.

Just... i know it's a deserve for her, but i will still feel uneasy about it. That's why sometimes when she is around, i feel like... im a very big loser. Feel embarassing when besides. This feeling appear also when i was in 12th CNYE, because i was unable to help those OC. That kind of feelings always make me feel i want to make myself dissolve... not only those, even grouping in assignment, project also... that's the reason why i always stay in individual path when doing assignment, rather i die than pull another down the well...

But still, i need to control, very hard... I always told people that, don't let the jealousy come forward you, or else, jealousy will lead you to more suffer point. Because you will always compare yourself with other people (that's my thinking, doesn't mean that other people thinking also same with me)... Since i expose something that keep on bothering me since last two semester to my dad, i started to have negative and positive thinking on one. Rather than only have negative point of view toward one. But that's make me more messy about human being. Human are hard to be predicted...

God always stay beside my sister, then, will He stay beside me too? stay beside such a loser? ...

* God Bless Everyone ... *

p/s: it might be a weird post but then, i wrote whenever what is in my mind, so might be not that tidy at all... Sorry...

Archive!

2010-01-31T01:27:00.003+08:00

Yeah Blog Updated once! Just done the archive thingy! still copy and paste the code from the original template :p but still i missed the old type... like this

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> 2010

>january

- something

-something

>2009

>december

-something

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nah... i think might be the blogspot change the template style already...

* sigh *

Anyway, glad that can view previous post dy

* Happy *

Just one night

2010-01-29T13:44:00.001+08:00

T_T so sad that after yesterday late sleep, just one night, my face pop a lot of small pimples *sa.....* so surprise! it's just one night! No............... Nevermind nevermind, all the best to cure it!

Comment!

2010-01-29T04:13:00.001+08:00

Yeah! Just done with the comment thingy! i keep on copy paste the code keep on finding the code with the "comment" words. T_T now i feel a little bit dizzy, eyes pain, blur, and it's 4am in the morning! and i didnt realize it...

* going to be in trouble dy *

But Yet! i satified with the result :)

* Tired tired tired... *

* Sweaty sweaty sweaty *

* haven't done with the archive thingy, it's necessary? may be :) *

DIY

2010-01-29T02:16:00.011+08:00

Just back from celebrating kam hong and eros belated birthday :) I gave both of them some DIY birthday cards. Hopefully they will like it because T_T it's seem doesn't work very good because not much idea for doing it some more both are my 1st time for doing these kind of cards partend :) Here is the card that made by me, hopefully it won't turn out to be... @.@

* just get information from eros... THE RIBBON TOO SHORT FOR HIM TO TIE BACK THE RIBBON T_T SO SAD...... i should make it longer if going to do that kind next time... T_T sorry for it.. my bad T_T *

and also the card looks like new year card instead of birthday cards, it's because since chinese new year is around the corner, so i mixed both of the thing, birthday + CNY + year of tiger :)

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* (1st one i done) part 1 front page *

* part 2 inner part *

* saw this type in online then try to do (2nd one i done) *

* Year of Tiger *

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Actually i wanted to do DIY stuff as present in long time ago, but just that i'm very lazy and have a lot of excuses for not doing it. Just like since foundation i keep on nagging that i wanted to do this and that for my gangs, but in the end end up for few years not doing it. In the end i managed to done christmas card for them :) and i happy about it although i'm not really satified for the result but still, i managed to keep my promises (sorry for the card too small). And actually it is a bookmark i wanted to do, but end up to be looked like cards. It's actually quite a number of the cards, but i don't mind for doing it for them because i really owe them a lot since foundation *love you guys :)* so a small gift, no biggie :)

Then my next DIY card is mindy's birthday card, *sorry for too small* that is also a first time pattern that i had done. :) i stole the idea from a gift shop that i entered in One Utama *evil laugh* T_T but end up not very nice *sorry about it* will changed after that :)

Then now, thanks to my cousin sis, i started to DIY something as birthday present :) i heard that my cousin sis always DIY birthday present for her friends. I don't really dare to DIY something because i always do something very simple, such as card, box only, others, i don't have any idea about it. So i feel very bad about it, that's why i prefer to buy present instead of doing. But now, i'm trying to DIY most of the presents meanwhile i can improve my handmade strength :)

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* my manicure *

* Mindy's manicure *

Day before yesterday, i had done my manicure with Mindy *muahahaha* It's organized by CF i think. It is for charity purpose, so each of us give out RM10 for the manicure :). It's turn out to be not too bad and realize, the nail polish color is one of the kind that i wanted to search XD. Mindy done her cyan color + blue manicure. It's matched her bags and of course, herself :) she is very fair so the cyan color + blue suit her very much *love it :)* - don't have her pic, so will get from her later

Because they just do for the charity, so they doesn't do it in a proper way, they just polish for you just like that, so it isn't so "clean" but it still fine :)

On the other hand, i had learned something from the nail polish pattern too :) trying hard to learn new stuff, and T_T hopefully i will trying hard to learn in programming, so that my FYP partner and my project partners won't so disappointed toward me *sa......* GOD bless you guys *sa....*

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p/s: *sa....* = *sob sob...* = * T_T * learned it from shin chan comics ;p

p/p/s: it can't see the picture clearly can click to make it bigger to look it it :)

p/p/p/s: the card suppose to be cool because it's for guys but end up to be =.= more to give to a girl, but anyway, still wish they will like it :)

p/p/p/p/s: recently has been a lot of bloody comment toward my current images, especially hair, so what? as long as it won't turn to be messy can already, ugly or not :) once in a blue moon, no biggie about how it turns to be :)

New Hobby!

2010-01-25T00:10:00.001+08:00

Yesterday i went to sam's house to play mahjong. This is my 2nd time played. The first time i played is ages ago with xiao pei them. but then at that time i'm not really into it because still haven't fully know how to play, because i only played one round for that time.

Ever since yesterday, i started to have new hobby already except for basketball and bowling. XD that is mahjong muahaha... Some said that mahjong not good but for old folk it's quite good for them because i heard that mahjong can cure parkinson, not that can cure is more to avoid to have parkinson disease (=.=||| i think is this lah)

*evil laugh*

Until now T_T i can't really stop thinking about mahjong because it's really very challenges and scary. =.=||| need to have luck to play. Yesterday have ah min's help, today T_T all by myself playing but still luckily kat, jay and sam taught me, or else i still not sure about some of the stuff.

*happy*

At least now i have new things to play, some more, yc, yj, xiao pei, kk etc they like to play mahjong. T_T now i no need to stand beside to see, i can also join in anytime! *peace*

By the way, T_T i still haven't started my revision and fyp T_T going to die soon........... *sa.........*

MUST HARDWORKING! *hek hak!*

p/s: now planning wanted to buy a set of small/big mahjong set dy *evil laugh* T_T may be after i have extra money to spend on it *sa.....*

Random Post

2010-01-23T15:18:00.004+08:00

This is the cat that happened to be seen behind my hometown's house. Whenever it's lunch or dinner time, it will be there, for sure, just for food *clever*. Because i doesn't know it's name (and tend to forgot about it's gender so i just call it as "mi" = "mimi")

Recently my brain and my face turned to be like it's picture facial reaction. It is because of my crazy subjects. T_T feel so sad that 3 of my subjects has 1 assignment and 1 project together, others just has one assignment. Including one FYP. T_T feel so sad that i'm going to face java, openGL, VRML etc... mostly is like class programming. The main point is........

IT'S MORE PROGRAMMING AND THEORY THINGY THAT I REALLY VERY WEAK ON IT

*Sigh*

Just a random post...

If only i can done everything early and have a good sleep like this cat that i found in cyberia's playground... T_T so enjoying the day.

*nice pose*

What a cacat and broke day

2010-01-21T22:55:00.002+08:00

This morning so funny, have you guys ever experience this kind of thing before? Searching for something that is actually nearby you or you were having it all the time? I had experience quite a few times but this time is really quite rediculous =.=||| this morning after done showering, i can't find my panty that i just put it on my bed. i kept on searching and searching and searching, went to toilet to check, searching on the bed, in the wardore, every where that possible. In the end, guess where i found my panty? It just on me =.=||| means that I was wearing it all the while =.=||| sweat really.... so guys, next time if you were finding something that you want to wear, XD double check your body wether you guys are wearing it or not XD, but then =.=||| i don't think it will happen to others ba unless got people is more blur than me =.=|||

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In the afternoon, i had get my hair done in sg wang (ya is very far from here *tired*), =.=||| kena "potong leher" also... *haix* what to do, nvm ba.. once in a blue moon, again, who ask me to be so blur. Some more i got a little bit phobia toward hair salon, but at least, i get it done quite ok :) =.=||| may be... and while moving forward to time square, i found a cat, in shopping complex =.=||| so surprise...

*cute*

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At night, after i came back, guess what my roommate watching? Phobia 2 movie =.=||| *sweat* and XD im watching also =.=||| really charm.. and i heard the last story is the scaries =.=||| luckily i have roommate tonight :)

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p/s: my face getting worst, but going to finish the thing i'm using 1st then will try out the one my friend had introduce to me since it is very effective toward her, don't know will be effective toward me o not, hopefully will, or else =.=||| i will hear some nagging again

p/p/s: =.=||| phobia 2 last story is scary but actually is funny one, =.=||| make me shout for few times *blush*

*end for today*

过去，就是一个回忆了

2010-01-20T13:23:00.002+08:00

过去，

是一场梦，

是一场曾经拥有的梦，

无论是喜，怒，哀还是乐，

都是美丽的梦，很棒的梦，

这些梦，

会永远的，

变成了我们的回忆

2nd Day

2010-01-19T15:37:00.004+08:00

It's 2nd day for the school opened. Although i only took 5 subjects + 1 fyp, but then for me, that 5 subjects are enough to kill me.

*Sigh*

That is because some of the subject is totally theoritical thingy, some of it require programming, some more it does out in midterm and final exam. Some more, today i have attended one class called "Virtual Reality". It is a quite interesting subject but then, the lecturer speak to fast. She also mentioned she will give lecture very fast so hope we can pay attention during her classes because what she lectures will be out in the examination, some more not all of the things she told us will be in our notes.

*not every notes is given perfectly*

*Sigh* What can i do, i feel so terrible eventhough it is just my 2nd day of school opened... *sad*

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Recently i've been addicted to Rainie Yang's song, of course, XD xiao zhu is sure included. Recently their new album is very nice to be listened. You guys can try to listen to their songs too. if you wan

*grin*

It's been an ages

2010-01-18T11:30:00.003+08:00

It's been an ages for me to update my blog. For the brand new year, i had tried to change my blog's template.. and It's really make me feel "haix....."

but nevermind, will fix it later ohoho...

haix.. yesterday i checked all my subject's course plan, realize.. T_T there is few subject really not easy.. some more need to do assignment + project together.. siao... what to do T_T some more there is one FYP waiting for me also...

nothing much to talk about because XD not in the blogging mood yet ohoho... so now im going to show the picture that i took during my flight from kuching to KL... WAHAHHAA.. after long time i've been using MAS, finally i can sit near the window muahahhaa and very first time i can take picture with my digital camera!! and the effect XD i quite satified...

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(Just like mirror)

(My Cute Bagpack muahha)

Demo nail polish (Copy from amy)

Tarrrrrryert...........................

2009-06-06T13:05:00.000+08:00

wahhhh finally weekend already T_T
yesterday like typing type until just like rocket....
*tap tap tap tap*
scary man...
because i cannot finish up my thing...
and it's almost 6pm already...
but in the end my team leader help me to do the last one...
fuh...
but quite sad because still slow...
already one week...
one word describe working...
tired................

tire...........

tir......

ti...

t..

..

.

Date: 6.6.2009
Time: 1:23pm

Working liao

2009-06-03T18:57:00.000+08:00

WAHHHHHHHHHH FINALLY I CAN ONLINE AND TOUCH MY BLOG T_T
damn tired working lah..............
=.= at 1st i scared to work until wanted to cry...
after that i feel like i want to work wahahahaa
then after that after work i feel like T_T nooooo i don't want to work at all ...
so tired everyday do the P&I advertisement thing and ONA advertisement thing...
i'm quite slow and for the person who taught me although he was very patience but then still i keep forgotten the thing...
he also wanted to vomit blood already...
haix... i worked at =.= some company that not even can mention the name =.=... it stands for print to internet...
start from the 1st day...
i totally don't know where is that place and i lazy to wake up early so i didn't manage to ride the bus with stephen...
then hor... i went by myself lo...
i need to use whatever buses that have passed streetmall...
then from streetmall i need to use shutter bus 2 to go to cyberview...
by the time i reached cyberview =.= waliao leh...
i met polices and some cars... i only walk leh =.= the polices show hand stop hand sign to ask me stop walking =.= siao ar... maybe got big post people passed but...
HELLO I'M JUST WALKING =.= what the heck... i still need to stop walking =.= cilaka betul...
nevermind lah just ignore... then i walked until cyberview resort guard house there...
asked him where is pipit block...
=.= then he said... oh is at opposite side.. fainted... i'm wearing heels leh T_T and formal and skirt...
nevermind lo time still early ohoho...
then i walked walked walked... =.= apa la.. how come the car cannot go in... some more how come the building all is named by bird name...
weird ....
raja wali lah... pipit lah.. enggau lah... bla bla ...then walked until half i asked a stranger...
who knows
=.= is another side again...
then i ma cincai walked lo.. finally T_T found the place... im damn hot man..
then when i went inside, no one entertain me also..
some more not man people and they no need to wear formal pun...
after 9 something =.= they already done our punch card early...
the HR manager gave some briefing for us...
then there is 4 supervisor...
but then one is on leave...
so left 3....
then the malay girl call =.= i forgot the name... im such a forgetful person...
she took 5 chinese =.= so smart...
she arranged the timetable for "raya" 1st =.= so keng...
then lo... another 4 chinese is engineering students...
also my new-known friends... chii hoong, see ling, jovan, and =.= got one forgot already...
then the supervisor distribute us into 3 group... GSN, ZN and CMS...
im the only trainnee who got into CMS =.=|||
but XD the senior colleage see me also want to faint after taught me...
(nooooooooooooo what happen to my english... T_T i've been speaking malay and chinese ever since i enter that company =.=||| suey....)
then lunch time lo... T_T i thought i need to stay at office... but then XD so lucky and happy... 4 of the chinese ask me go eat together !!! yea!!!!
ever since that day i ate with them hehe... T_T glad glad...
then very ma fan... after 2 weeks.. we need to fill in two form... one is efficiency, another one is time monitoring form...efficiency form is like what time you do ur stuff until what time, go toilet also need to jot down.. crazy... but maybe is their procedure so nevermind hehe...
conclusion... the group that i entered quite nice lah... XD at least i meet good people again...
hehe... and my group is the most active group among the 3 groups... ohoho eh still got one group called HB1... cause mostly is chinese in my group... but XD think they will be sad to have me as a trainnee because i'm slow man ohoho...

okiedokie, time for dinner... will be updated... *my eyes... T_T*

公平，不公平

2009-05-26T18:17:00.000+08:00

这世界，
就是那么的不公平，
无论是在那一行。。。
对于其中一行。。。
也是我最不喜欢的其中之一。。。
每一次说话。。。
需要改的，
都是我要改。。。
当我问，为何改的都是要我改。。。
他人也是要改。。。
为何就是要指我？
我粗。。。
他们也粗。。。
但是。。。对于他们，
别人只会说：“他们至少是用别种放式说，你比较直接。。。”，
或者 “他们都是这样的啦”。。。等等。。。
好不公平。。。
从小，就这么觉得。。。
为何我不可以再粗再直接。。。
永远要改的就是自己。。。
就是自己。。。
很不明白。。。
也许。。。
给我明白的道理，时间。。。
还不是这个时候吧。。。
也许。。。还是要我经历多一点，才能知道吧。。。
但是。。。
一个在我心中改不掉的观念就是。。。
这个世界的现实。。。
永远就是那么的不公平。。。
原因。。。我。。。不懂。。。也不想懂。。。
因为这世界有太多未知数的疑问。。。
也是这世界“特别”的地方。。。

日期：26.05.2009
时间：6.36pm

原来我们不够熟。。。

2009-05-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

=.= for some reason... i posted something in my facebook quote...
and then... one of my malacca fren commented on it...
then play with me...
then i ma play back lo...
then i said "chat with your butt XD" after some sentence...
and then continue post the chat...
until the bottom...
i realize something not right...
then only realize...
T_T he thought i'm shooting him and he beh song keep shooting me back...
but the fact is...
i never thought of something shooting or what...
i just playing around like how i play with li cheang and others...
all of us are close friends...
something like "butt" is very normal for us, or cilaka, tmd, hate you, your head ..
and we have known each other for around 3 years,
classmate one year during foundation...
i thought that we were friends,
some more is friend-ier than my cyberjaya campus friends because we known each other one year earlier than others...
but...
i never knew that...
the fact is we are not close at all...
and he totally don't know we were just joking around and he thought he treat me nicely how come i shoot him back...
i felt very sad to realize that...
even though we know each other for 3 years but we are not close actually...
it's hurt when something you thought it is but in the end it is not...

为什么误会总是发生在我身上。。。而不是别人。。。一次又一次的误会。。。累了，不理了，也许，我的表达能力真的是很有问题。。。我，好伤，好伤，又有一个疤在我心里了。。。好失望。。。也好失败

something that should learn: never assume something=true by ourselve, because we don't know that something we assume=true others also assume=true... and... never use the same personality to treat different person... always be different in order not to have misunderstanding...

Date: 26.05.2009
Time: 1.21am

准备了好没有?

2009-05-24T17:02:00.000+08:00

人，在什么是又是轻松又快乐?
对于我刚刚所想到的...
人, 在把一切所要做的事准备的非常完整...
是会让人觉得轻松又快乐没烦恼...
因为, 心里没有多余的负担
你, 把一切准备了好没有?
我, 还没...

The Imperfection.

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I'm Emo, But Yet Happy :)

Stupid Question

I wish I'm jobless now

與其。。。 不如

在乎

不正常的心

The Long Updated

這樣的我

我和你不並不熟

稚氣呢？ 還是傻氣？

我沒有你想象的那麽堅強

It Changed.

可以嗎？

Not A Bad Thing

First Off Day After I Started My Real Job!

Guilty, Tired, Frustrated

A Freaking Bloody Rotten Day!!!

Finished Training!

Going-to-be-deal-with-Cantonese??

AhhhhhHHHh Dehhhhhh!

Etiquette

Vintage Effect

3rd Day Of Training

First Day

A New Chapter Of Life Begins

Valentine

Free Flow Food Updated!

左右爲難

Back To The Reality World

陰

Another DIY + A Date With Sibling

Just A Quick and Random Post

A Small Pre-CNY Gathering

Pinky Birthday Boy! ♪♪ Singing Birthday Song ♪♪

A Window Shopping Turned Out to be A Shopping Day!

未婚生子

Old and Bad Habit

Cupp-CuppCake Time!

雨過天晴

不想長大

如果還有如果

Violet Brighten My Day :)

*End of Year 2010*

我是誰 我是誰 我是誰

I'm Back!

Photo Editting by PAINT.NET + PHOTOSHOP

Cats Photo Shooting Day

Miserable, Stress

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine's D❤y !

Just one non-sense post

Archive!

Just one night

Comment!

DIY

New Hobby!

Random Post

What a cacat and broke day

过去，就是一个回忆了

2nd Day

It's been an ages

Tarrrrrryert...........................

Working liao

公平，不公平

原来我们不够熟。。。

准备了好没有?

與其。。。不如

稚氣呢？還是傻氣？

End of Year 2010

我是誰我是誰我是誰